I don't want another brother, I've already got a younger big one

[kiarna]

Everyone's telling me to give up on him. Move on. And for once, I'm seeing it. And wondering if I want to yet. Long distance sucks on any kind of relationship, even if you can pick up the phone with some people and start right where you left off. When I was in NYC, Cass and I decided there was no way we could ever really want each other, we were so much like brother and sister that our main goal was to try and get the other in the pool, not in a hidden corner somewhere. I have my Cass, I don't want another one. I hate to think of Ryan in that way. Long distance -sucks-. If he were here at least I could slap him and yell, instead of having to send a stupid apology email, like I have my tail between my legs. I'm always the one that backs down. Goodie. Time for the mall and bills, later.

Oh, and I applied part time at the library downtown and the one down the street. We'll see how it goes.