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It's amazing to think that you've changed so much in a year. A year ago I was cramming into my last week of finals. Papers upon papers upon exams upon projects. I was trying to get a passport to fly out to Germany. I was trying to spend as much time with friends as possible.
Now it's bills, work, a much smaller group of friends but still as important. Why is it I accept things? I expect other people to take care of things, like I can't do it myself. Was I raised that way? Did my environment(s) influence it? Why is I feel like I need people around me to feel safe, happy... I miss school. Back before I got screwed by landlords, electric companies, and car garages. Back when my parents were together. When the only real thing on my conscience was that Dan had changed so much. I miss college. I miss Brockport. I miss knowing what I wanted.
God I'm pathetic today. Good thing I can walk to work soon and have to deal with other people's issues instead of my own.
Now it's bills, work, a much smaller group of friends but still as important. Why is it I accept things? I expect other people to take care of things, like I can't do it myself. Was I raised that way? Did my environment(s) influence it? Why is I feel like I need people around me to feel safe, happy... I miss school. Back before I got screwed by landlords, electric companies, and car garages. Back when my parents were together. When the only real thing on my conscience was that Dan had changed so much. I miss college. I miss Brockport. I miss knowing what I wanted.
God I'm pathetic today. Good thing I can walk to work soon and have to deal with other people's issues instead of my own.