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Am feeling a bit strange at the minute. Detached from reality. Distinctly apathetic towards everything. I don't really know myself what I feel like, which is weird because usually I would be aware of that, and also usually able to work out why I'm feeling the way I am, but it stubbornly remains a mystery to me. I feel like I've been drugged; I just want to sleep all the time because I can't really be bothered to do anything else. Nothing really makes me feel particularly excited or happy at the minute. I don't feel angry, I don't feel happy like I usually do...for a long time now I've been keeping myself in a positive optimistic frame of mind but now it all just seems to have crashed inexplicably around me. I suppose I maybe feel sad, but almost without reason. And it's almost worse that there's no apparent reason for it because it means I can't logically talk myself out of it, or focus on the problem because I don't know what it is. Maybe it's just one of those days/weekends/weeks. It'll probably evaporate soon. I hope so, because I can't really carry on with this sort of melodrama it's really not terribly conducive to general life...! I don't think I can even really express myself properly either. Words aren't really sufficient, or perhaps I just can't manipulate them the way I want to right now. This feels self-indulgent but.........