first of all, darling face, ive felt the same way, but ive come to realize that no one hates me, its actually my subconcious telling me that because it seems like no one makes an effort to be around me and no one invites me anywhere which must mean they hate me, right? i think they dont realize the effect they have on certain people and its not that they dont like you, its the weird groupings of people that were a product of initial insecurity and a need to belong felt by everyone and having a "group" fills that void. or something. and i dont know if this helps, but i have never during my time here heard anyone say anything negative about you. not one single thing. and if it makes you feel any better, i think the people who are saying passive agressive insults but not insults to you are just products of the semi-competative enviornment that seems to have surfaced. so i geuss what it all comes down to is, you and i? well, somehow we've been turned into people that would cause "drama" around other certain people. if you know i mean. so we are not a part of these little cliques. but who needs them? we dont. we shall create and learn when everyone else is getting all junkie kinds of high all the time and they wont have much to show for all this time here by the end of the year. maybe a couple funny stories if they can manage to remember them, and maybe some cool bruises... if you ever feel like you want to get away from this i could take you to hang out with "my people". youve met them all. multiple times probably. they dont know what the word drama means. they value things that matter. and they have all mentioned that you stood out to them as someone they liked. it might be a breath of fresh air. or if you ever need to talk im always here...or there.. or willing to try to help...and i really like talking to you. unless you really hate me and actually everyone really does hate me and im fooling myself into thinking things that aren't real and im actually a horrible person... anyways. im kinda sorry i wrote so much. i drank a lot of coffee. peace to you music man.
if you ever feel like you want to get away from this i could take you to hang out with "my people". youve met them all. multiple times probably. they dont know what the word drama means. they value things that matter. and they have all mentioned that you stood out to them as someone they liked. it might be a breath of fresh air. or if you ever need to talk im always here...or there.. or willing to try to help...and i really like talking to you. unless you really hate me and actually everyone really does hate me and im fooling myself into thinking things that aren't real and im actually a horrible person...
anyways. im kinda sorry i wrote so much. i drank a lot of coffee.
peace to you music man.
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