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I found a book of cryptograms amongst my things last night. I can't explain what is a cryptogram because I don't remember. Frankly, the book was never for me. I bought it for Jamie over a year ago. I bought it with the intention of giving it to him the day we first met at the Modern Museum. But, obviously, I didn't give it to him. I was embarrassed and I thought he would think I was some weird freak for giving it to him. We'd never met face to face before that day. We did a lot of chatting online before we finally met. I was scared to meet him. It wasn't so much nervousness about meeting someone I'd only talked to online. It was more the fact that I liked him. I thought he was really sweet, sincere, honest and misunderstood.
I don't remember who made the first contact. I do remember the first thing that drew me to him, the fact that he was left-handed. We were both in a lefties community and he lived in Fort Worth. In my opinion, it was a cool discovery. We didn't talk much at that point. I became more motivated to talk to him when he posted an entry in his journal warned his LJ friends in the DFW area of some bad weather (sleet, ice, that sort of thing). I surprised to see that he had included me in that group. I didn't expect it because he never responded to my comments or made any in my journal. Even after that day, he still didn't pay much attention to me. He sent the occasional reply but no real effort or interest to get to know me. I really don't know why he started talking to me. I don't know what sparked his sudden interest but I welcomed it.
Hmm, I guess I've always been trying (then and now) to get his attention though, I don't really know how to do that (then and now). Why have I been doing that? Are you supposed to work hard to get someone's attention? How do you know when you have it? When you do have it, where do you go from there?