2 weeks til Cali
I have to be the luckiest person in the world. In 2 and a half weeks I will be getting on a plane to go to California, to see a guy who I care about very much. Over the last 3 months I have gotten to know a lot about Karl and I realize that I like him more than I thought. He has treated me so well and I don't wanna do anything to jeopardize what we have. I am afraid tho. I'm afraid that when I get out there and get to spend a week with him, that my feelings will get stronger and I'm not sure how to deal with that. I'm already attached. He says it's not a bad thing but I think it is because there's no way that he can be here with me right now. It does make me unhappy that he won't be home until Christmas....and that I've never had to deal with a long distance relationship but I think overall things are going ok. If I could have one thing for Christmas it would be for Karl not to go out for another year. But that's me being selfish and I know I'm prolly not going to get that. I'll make the best of things tho. I think we have something really good going and I don't want to see that end.