cry - kelly clarkson

[kharmanova]

my sister recently made a post about another kelly clarkson song and then i listened to this and really related... so i'll post it

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

I've gotten drunk a couple nights this week to the point of hysterical crying fits to laughing fits to puking in the toliet or sleeping it off. I've come to the terms that I'm still not over - dare i even say it? - everytime i think i've gotten through this something comes up and a major trigger happens. For anyone who has ever understood real pain from a break up - I admire your strength to have gotten through it or your strength to get through it. For it is YOU that really knows how I feel. I think I need to go take a walk or go somewhere to be alone for a while.

I'll get through this one day - God please tell me that that's possible...