Feb 03, 2005 11:14
People are not the same and thats what makes each of of fun and interesting in our own ways...if we all handled each situation the same it would be easier but not fun at all.
I seriously am not mad...i thought that maybe last night i would have a break down and freak out but i didnt...i did act a little weird after a nap but i was just tired...maybe other people are like this but i dont know...i handle things by deciding if im going to let them bother me. I have this ability to not let things affect me...i totally am able to change my emotions, i really am not sure if others can do this to, but ive noticed in the past year or so that i can decide how i respond to things, so when i respond the wrong way its because i decided thats what i wanted to do...i bring things upon myself. I seriously am not mad, upset, sad any of those. But i found it interesting that by my not getting mad at you made you mad. Which was an interesting twist on things...
I just dont have a person that gets me the way i want them to get me...and that is ok...i really think God is just bringing me thru something...oh well people know my faults...i should just get over it and i will...but for the record: No one was entitled to know anything, so dont make me feel like a bad person because i wanted to keep things quiet about my mistakes...it is not anyones right to know the things i did.
Yes it is true...i had a friend tell me that i am like a house...i look very open and inviting and you come inside and i have a huge entry way but all the rest of the rooms in my house are closed and you cant go inside...maybe some day i will open them and if you ask sometimes i will...
Well, we'll see how long you all avoid talking to me...but im here and not mad...so talk to me if you want...