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I miss being able to do what I want when I want
I miss cooking my own dinner
I miss being able to close my bedroom door
I miss my queen size bed and millions of comfy pillows
I miss sleeping until 11 without having someone make fun of me
I miss my spontanious friends who would jump at the chance to do something fun after school like midnight movies, or the bars, or driving to the city for a day, or just hanging out somewhere watching movies, cooking dinner, smoking, listening to music, no matter what because we were friends and we loved it
I miss being able to wear what I want, instead of having someone ask me why i'm wearing it or make fun of what I'm wearing
I miss who I was when I wasn't living here in NY
I miss...everything
I worked hard to change who I was, to become a better person
I hate that I have to keep silent to remain that way
I hate that I can't be me
anywhere...with anyone
I fear slipping back into the person I was
I fear losing everything I put into myself
I fear losing everything I worked so hard for in my acting
...trips to RI are essential so that I don't forget who I am, who I worked so hard to become, so that Gill and Justin and Kristen and Kyle and Sarah and Steph and Alex and Jordan can help me not to forget.
I miss cooking my own dinner
I miss being able to close my bedroom door
I miss my queen size bed and millions of comfy pillows
I miss sleeping until 11 without having someone make fun of me
I miss my spontanious friends who would jump at the chance to do something fun after school like midnight movies, or the bars, or driving to the city for a day, or just hanging out somewhere watching movies, cooking dinner, smoking, listening to music, no matter what because we were friends and we loved it
I miss being able to wear what I want, instead of having someone ask me why i'm wearing it or make fun of what I'm wearing
I miss who I was when I wasn't living here in NY
I miss...everything
I worked hard to change who I was, to become a better person
I hate that I have to keep silent to remain that way
I hate that I can't be me
anywhere...with anyone
I fear slipping back into the person I was
I fear losing everything I put into myself
I fear losing everything I worked so hard for in my acting
...trips to RI are essential so that I don't forget who I am, who I worked so hard to become, so that Gill and Justin and Kristen and Kyle and Sarah and Steph and Alex and Jordan can help me not to forget.