it's been a while...
since i last posted anything on dear ol' lj. and honestly, what i'm about to post is a bit embarassing, but i'm gonna say it anyway.
so, 'the hills' on mtv had its season finale tonight, and i'm so super sad. not just because heidi made a big mistake by moving in with spencer, but the fact that i had to say goodbye to lauren. i know that sounds weird, since i don't know these people at all, and these events took place months ago, but i can't deny the connection i felt with lauren and the situations that she had to go through. the show aired during the tail-end of one of the most difficult times i've ever experienced, and i'll admit that i yelled with lauren, cried with lauren, laughed, smiled, and semi-healed with lauren. again, i know it's so super weird to say (oh, and we can also thank 'the hills' for slipping "super" into my vocabulary), but watching this show every week has helped me to try and get through my problems. i guess it was just the feeling of knowing that i'm not the only one to go through certain things, and that yes, it can get better, even if it isn't in the way you think it will be. and since i'm not the biggest fan of 'talking' about my problems, it was very therapuetic for me to be able to scream at the television, and feel like the person on the screen understood and gave advice to me as well. things still aren't 100% better, and goodness knows i could use at least one more episode of 'the hills', but i simply can't deny how helpful this silly little 'reality'-based mtv show has helped me.
wow. who knew that not all reality tv isn't mindless dribble. lucky, lucky me.
ps - my old laptop decided to continue being a big brat, so i now find myself the owner of a brand new laptop! and it's amazing and shiny and fast and beautiful! i love it. so much. i plan to take super great care of it. and i got it at costco for an amazing price with so much extra stuff included! and needless to say, i am no longer against costco!
so, 'the hills' on mtv had its season finale tonight, and i'm so super sad. not just because heidi made a big mistake by moving in with spencer, but the fact that i had to say goodbye to lauren. i know that sounds weird, since i don't know these people at all, and these events took place months ago, but i can't deny the connection i felt with lauren and the situations that she had to go through. the show aired during the tail-end of one of the most difficult times i've ever experienced, and i'll admit that i yelled with lauren, cried with lauren, laughed, smiled, and semi-healed with lauren. again, i know it's so super weird to say (oh, and we can also thank 'the hills' for slipping "super" into my vocabulary), but watching this show every week has helped me to try and get through my problems. i guess it was just the feeling of knowing that i'm not the only one to go through certain things, and that yes, it can get better, even if it isn't in the way you think it will be. and since i'm not the biggest fan of 'talking' about my problems, it was very therapuetic for me to be able to scream at the television, and feel like the person on the screen understood and gave advice to me as well. things still aren't 100% better, and goodness knows i could use at least one more episode of 'the hills', but i simply can't deny how helpful this silly little 'reality'-based mtv show has helped me.
wow. who knew that not all reality tv isn't mindless dribble. lucky, lucky me.
ps - my old laptop decided to continue being a big brat, so i now find myself the owner of a brand new laptop! and it's amazing and shiny and fast and beautiful! i love it. so much. i plan to take super great care of it. and i got it at costco for an amazing price with so much extra stuff included! and needless to say, i am no longer against costco!