(no subject)
I am tired. my mind echoes every word that flows through my ears.
rendering them unrecognizable.
It is only my will that keeps my eyes open. muscles respond weakly and with hesitation.
being is equaled with reluctance today.
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three from the same page:
will it get better?
the skittish shuffling of my being under the gaze of others.
i am ashamed by facing them. i am servile in my obligation
and become transparent in my action. what will become of me?
Waning spirits usually fill up again, but occasionally one must let them deplete only emptied out can the well be cleared out so that a spring can flood again.
"i am worthless" is a positive affirmation. one that is beneficial to a zen self.
the ego on the other hand wants to be valued wants even to be desired by others. but to be an active person one must either totally affirm the ego or totally deny it.
i have yet to do either.
rendering them unrecognizable.
It is only my will that keeps my eyes open. muscles respond weakly and with hesitation.
being is equaled with reluctance today.
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three from the same page:
will it get better?
the skittish shuffling of my being under the gaze of others.
i am ashamed by facing them. i am servile in my obligation
and become transparent in my action. what will become of me?
Waning spirits usually fill up again, but occasionally one must let them deplete only emptied out can the well be cleared out so that a spring can flood again.
"i am worthless" is a positive affirmation. one that is beneficial to a zen self.
the ego on the other hand wants to be valued wants even to be desired by others. but to be an active person one must either totally affirm the ego or totally deny it.
i have yet to do either.