wow
i am soooooo tired.
yesterday was fun, the first show went great. i was really satisfied with it. the second show... well that was different. bombay went fine, costume change went fine, beginning of marian went fine. then i jumped up onto my table and stepped on my own skirt and it fell off. talk about hottness. when people were moving chairs down and switching positions i had to kick it offstage so we wouldnt slip and fall offstage. so i did the rest of marian and all of 76 trombones with a pink shirt and orange dress. it wasnt that horrible though, nobody ran up to me screaming what happened. it just sucked. kind of embarassing, ya know? well then the ballad went fine and funk was okay. that song is just so tiring, i was sweating for so long afterwards i just felt naaaaaasty.
blake came, i was so happy. even though i had some little issues during the show, the first thing he said to me was "you look beautiful". O:-) it was so cute. i saw jon humston. i almost hate seeing him now, even though in my head i was secretly hoping he'd be there. of course he was. i was talking to him when i spotted my mom and blake, so i ran off. then downstairs blake and i were walking through the crowd and got stopped right by jon so i talked to him a little. things are just so awkward. i probably still like him but he goes to UNI so i dont have to run into him and such. i'm sure we could've dated this summer but i wasnt gonna try that hard to call him since he didnt call me. so i dont want to go to UNI because i think i would be tempted by him. i cant explain that to blake, but if blake and i are still together by the time i go to college who knows. i would never cheat but long distance would just suck like i cant explain.
last night after the show i went over to blake's because he really just needed to go to bed to go back to army early this morning. his roommates told us about a free keg and we were gonna go and have me be the driver, but i didnt want to so blake and i stayed back. i would normally be kind of okay with being the driver but if i was gonna go to a party last night, i was gonna drink. it had been too long of a day. but i also just didnt want any more people to see me in whore makeup because there were two girls and some guy i didnt know at blake's when we got there and i felt like an idiot. imagine what a room full of drunk people would say/think. i was too tired to deal with loudness and stupid people anyway. so we just went to blake's room and watched tv for a little bit but then he turned it off so i could hear the "noise" he has to deal with when he's trying to sleep. it was like nothing, muffled music from a room upstairs. i guess i'm probably the weird one that needs some kind of noise to sleep cause it didnt bug me a bit. we were both in and out of sleep just dosing off but waking up any time the other person moved or made a noise. i was so content, i could've stayed there all night. i wish i could've at least. i hate living at home. i love falling asleep with him, so i take advantage of naps over there as much as possible. sleeping with (not sex) boys is the best thing in the world. anyway, this entry is getting long and i need a shower. i'm still smelly and makeup-ed from last night, ick.
yesterday was fun, the first show went great. i was really satisfied with it. the second show... well that was different. bombay went fine, costume change went fine, beginning of marian went fine. then i jumped up onto my table and stepped on my own skirt and it fell off. talk about hottness. when people were moving chairs down and switching positions i had to kick it offstage so we wouldnt slip and fall offstage. so i did the rest of marian and all of 76 trombones with a pink shirt and orange dress. it wasnt that horrible though, nobody ran up to me screaming what happened. it just sucked. kind of embarassing, ya know? well then the ballad went fine and funk was okay. that song is just so tiring, i was sweating for so long afterwards i just felt naaaaaasty.
blake came, i was so happy. even though i had some little issues during the show, the first thing he said to me was "you look beautiful". O:-) it was so cute. i saw jon humston. i almost hate seeing him now, even though in my head i was secretly hoping he'd be there. of course he was. i was talking to him when i spotted my mom and blake, so i ran off. then downstairs blake and i were walking through the crowd and got stopped right by jon so i talked to him a little. things are just so awkward. i probably still like him but he goes to UNI so i dont have to run into him and such. i'm sure we could've dated this summer but i wasnt gonna try that hard to call him since he didnt call me. so i dont want to go to UNI because i think i would be tempted by him. i cant explain that to blake, but if blake and i are still together by the time i go to college who knows. i would never cheat but long distance would just suck like i cant explain.
last night after the show i went over to blake's because he really just needed to go to bed to go back to army early this morning. his roommates told us about a free keg and we were gonna go and have me be the driver, but i didnt want to so blake and i stayed back. i would normally be kind of okay with being the driver but if i was gonna go to a party last night, i was gonna drink. it had been too long of a day. but i also just didnt want any more people to see me in whore makeup because there were two girls and some guy i didnt know at blake's when we got there and i felt like an idiot. imagine what a room full of drunk people would say/think. i was too tired to deal with loudness and stupid people anyway. so we just went to blake's room and watched tv for a little bit but then he turned it off so i could hear the "noise" he has to deal with when he's trying to sleep. it was like nothing, muffled music from a room upstairs. i guess i'm probably the weird one that needs some kind of noise to sleep cause it didnt bug me a bit. we were both in and out of sleep just dosing off but waking up any time the other person moved or made a noise. i was so content, i could've stayed there all night. i wish i could've at least. i hate living at home. i love falling asleep with him, so i take advantage of naps over there as much as possible. sleeping with (not sex) boys is the best thing in the world. anyway, this entry is getting long and i need a shower. i'm still smelly and makeup-ed from last night, ick.