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I made a decision today. I called my mother and asked her to meet me. She was willing to, but she was sick, so I told her to just stay in. We're gonna go out to breakfast in the morning. I know how much it hurts her that we don't talk. We used to be so close. So I'm gonna talk to her and see what we can do.
I am so annoyed. Sean messaged me and for some reason my away message had dissapeared. So he's fuckin yellin' at my computer saying if I don't answer him right away he's not gonna talk to me ever again. Okay, you're loss. Lol. So I got the messages and called him and then he wouldn't even talk. Okay seriously, I'm completely over him romantically. I realized that I just had been going through a lot of emotions and when I was with him it took away the problems. I wasn't in love with him. I was just confused. Yes I could imagine having a wonderful relationship with him, but now that I know the real him, I know it's for the better. He has some serious anger issues. He doesn't know how to deal with his problems and because of that he's going to hurt a lot of people and lose a lot of wonderful people because of it.
I'm totally willing to be his friend, but only, and I do mean only, if he can stop acting like an assfuck. He needs to learn to respect people. You can't kiss a person and tell them you can imagine a life with them one day, and then the next ignore them for a week. And you can't use the excuse of it being because they like you too much, because you can't help that kinda thing. So whatever. But seriously, he says "things are different". I'm still the same person. We were "just friends" when we sat on the phone for almost hours talking. Why can't we talk now. I'll be his friend when he understands what it means. A friend calls you and wants to hang out with you. A friend is there when you need them. A friend is understanding and forgiving. Right now I don't really care. I mean, I do, I think Sean is a great person, but I'm not going to devote any time to caring about someone who can't do the same thing to me. When he's ready to be a real friend, he can call me I guess. Until then, oh well.
I went up to the church and Kathy met me in the lobby and greated me with a hug. Then Kent and Ben joined. Kent had to videotape, and Ben was in the show, but Kathy and I sat together. The show was very well done, but as you all know, I'm agnostic, so it was awkward for me. But still nice that they invited me. I noticed that Sally, the daughter of the owner of my old job was in the show. She saw me and came over to talk to me. She said everyone misses me like crazy and that the store just isn't that same. She said I was the joy and fun brought to each shift. Aww.
In the middle of the service my phone started vibrating. It was Chris. Not the asshole Chris who has been contacting me again...ummm we'll call this guy DC to keep from confusion. It stands for Drunken Chris, due to an inside joke between us. We've been talking on MySpace and I had decided to give him my number. His messages had made me laugh so I figured it was worth a shot. He called me as I was leaving the church and we talked the whole drive home. He is really awesome. He lost like a shitload of weight too, so we had that in common. It was great. Someone who knows where I'm coming from. So that call kinda made my night. It was great to be able to talk to someone about the issues that come with life after that life change. It's great.
And when I came home, my bro was really nice to me. And he's gonna see about getting me a job at his work because he found out it's what I was looking for. AWESOME!
Time to cuddle up and watch a movie.
I am so annoyed. Sean messaged me and for some reason my away message had dissapeared. So he's fuckin yellin' at my computer saying if I don't answer him right away he's not gonna talk to me ever again. Okay, you're loss. Lol. So I got the messages and called him and then he wouldn't even talk. Okay seriously, I'm completely over him romantically. I realized that I just had been going through a lot of emotions and when I was with him it took away the problems. I wasn't in love with him. I was just confused. Yes I could imagine having a wonderful relationship with him, but now that I know the real him, I know it's for the better. He has some serious anger issues. He doesn't know how to deal with his problems and because of that he's going to hurt a lot of people and lose a lot of wonderful people because of it.
I'm totally willing to be his friend, but only, and I do mean only, if he can stop acting like an assfuck. He needs to learn to respect people. You can't kiss a person and tell them you can imagine a life with them one day, and then the next ignore them for a week. And you can't use the excuse of it being because they like you too much, because you can't help that kinda thing. So whatever. But seriously, he says "things are different". I'm still the same person. We were "just friends" when we sat on the phone for almost hours talking. Why can't we talk now. I'll be his friend when he understands what it means. A friend calls you and wants to hang out with you. A friend is there when you need them. A friend is understanding and forgiving. Right now I don't really care. I mean, I do, I think Sean is a great person, but I'm not going to devote any time to caring about someone who can't do the same thing to me. When he's ready to be a real friend, he can call me I guess. Until then, oh well.
I went up to the church and Kathy met me in the lobby and greated me with a hug. Then Kent and Ben joined. Kent had to videotape, and Ben was in the show, but Kathy and I sat together. The show was very well done, but as you all know, I'm agnostic, so it was awkward for me. But still nice that they invited me. I noticed that Sally, the daughter of the owner of my old job was in the show. She saw me and came over to talk to me. She said everyone misses me like crazy and that the store just isn't that same. She said I was the joy and fun brought to each shift. Aww.
In the middle of the service my phone started vibrating. It was Chris. Not the asshole Chris who has been contacting me again...ummm we'll call this guy DC to keep from confusion. It stands for Drunken Chris, due to an inside joke between us. We've been talking on MySpace and I had decided to give him my number. His messages had made me laugh so I figured it was worth a shot. He called me as I was leaving the church and we talked the whole drive home. He is really awesome. He lost like a shitload of weight too, so we had that in common. It was great. Someone who knows where I'm coming from. So that call kinda made my night. It was great to be able to talk to someone about the issues that come with life after that life change. It's great.
And when I came home, my bro was really nice to me. And he's gonna see about getting me a job at his work because he found out it's what I was looking for. AWESOME!
Time to cuddle up and watch a movie.