3 days...
I've not smoked any weed in three days. Wow big fuckin deal Sam. Well it's a big thing for me seeing as Guthrie bought a 40 bag last night and I chose not to partake! Well at least I'm not craving...I'll get back to you all on that though. Hmm, I wonder how long I can last. Carmichael's quitting for 6 weeks apparently. I don't think I can manage that. A month would be plenty. Or would it? Fuck knows. I just need to clear my head. I used to be articulate and literate, I had a good vocabulary. People would talk to me and think I was intelligent instead of thinkin "Wow, what a complete stoner, she really does talk mince".
I'm tired of being stoned feeling like normality instead of the other way around. I'm tired of spending so much money on shitty bags of weed. I'm tired of sounding like a retard. I'm tired of my memory being fucked. I'm tired of getting that tight feeling my chest sometimes when I smoke. I'm tired of being so tired.
Then again, I do fucking love my weed. So we'll see how things go.
I was volunteering at the Southern General Hospital again today...and yesterday which I didn't update about. Was all very interesting, but I doubt anyone wants to hear about it. Was told hunners of interesting stuff, learned about Guellin-Barre syndrome and Multiple Sclerosis. Got to help on a drug run, which isn't as exciting as it sounds as I'm not allowed to administer anything or even touch anything, but I got to read the drug Bible and check up on dosages and stuff. I got to talk to some patients and help them with their lunches and I followed a nurse called Danny about and checked catheters. Luckily they were all empty!
Also learned something very scary about methadone, not that I take it/know anyone that does, but if you overdose on it it can completely paralyse your entire body FOREVER! So watch out for methadone.
Met a dead nice patient called Robert. Told me about how he can get done for drunk driving if he's been drinking and his wheelchair touches the road lol. Told me about his holiday in Vegas later on this year and gave me a run down on common things that you might see in the Physically Disabled Rehab Unit. It's really great meetin people with terrible debilitating diseases who are still really positive and live their lives to the full, very inspiring.
I bought my lab coat for uni! I look like such a mad scientist, especially with my bright blue hair and geeky (designer) plastic glasses. I fucking love it.
Awwwww, was just having such a fun msn chat with Sam. Be good to see her and Kirsty more when uni starts, plenty of cackling to be had by the two Sams!
Jesus, it's like half 2 in the morning now. I'm so un hardcore now. There would have been a time Alan and I would have scoffed at 2:30am and just stayed up and up and up till school was to start. Mind you, I didn't have the wondrous bed I do now, so I'll bid you good night/morning and will catch you all later.
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I'm tired of being stoned feeling like normality instead of the other way around. I'm tired of spending so much money on shitty bags of weed. I'm tired of sounding like a retard. I'm tired of my memory being fucked. I'm tired of getting that tight feeling my chest sometimes when I smoke. I'm tired of being so tired.
Then again, I do fucking love my weed. So we'll see how things go.
I was volunteering at the Southern General Hospital again today...and yesterday which I didn't update about. Was all very interesting, but I doubt anyone wants to hear about it. Was told hunners of interesting stuff, learned about Guellin-Barre syndrome and Multiple Sclerosis. Got to help on a drug run, which isn't as exciting as it sounds as I'm not allowed to administer anything or even touch anything, but I got to read the drug Bible and check up on dosages and stuff. I got to talk to some patients and help them with their lunches and I followed a nurse called Danny about and checked catheters. Luckily they were all empty!
Also learned something very scary about methadone, not that I take it/know anyone that does, but if you overdose on it it can completely paralyse your entire body FOREVER! So watch out for methadone.
Met a dead nice patient called Robert. Told me about how he can get done for drunk driving if he's been drinking and his wheelchair touches the road lol. Told me about his holiday in Vegas later on this year and gave me a run down on common things that you might see in the Physically Disabled Rehab Unit. It's really great meetin people with terrible debilitating diseases who are still really positive and live their lives to the full, very inspiring.
I bought my lab coat for uni! I look like such a mad scientist, especially with my bright blue hair and geeky (designer) plastic glasses. I fucking love it.
Awwwww, was just having such a fun msn chat with Sam. Be good to see her and Kirsty more when uni starts, plenty of cackling to be had by the two Sams!
Jesus, it's like half 2 in the morning now. I'm so un hardcore now. There would have been a time Alan and I would have scoffed at 2:30am and just stayed up and up and up till school was to start. Mind you, I didn't have the wondrous bed I do now, so I'll bid you good night/morning and will catch you all later.
xx