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yeah sooo let me tell u how my new years eve was! first, i gotta say... it was by far the best new years eve ever. like wow... it was an amazing night. soooo yeah... i stayed at jess's house. omg it was soooo much fun. we just were messing around all night. we played with fireworks, watched bambi, and just messed around all night. i got to fall asleep with jess. it was amazing. i can't even describe the feeling i got when i was lying there holding jess close to me and her having her arm over me and her head on my shoulder. omg i got this amazing feeeling... like ugggh... it was just incredible... but yeah, around 7 in the morning me and jess were awake... although i say she was half asleep she says she wasn't... but yeah, we were kissing and i started kissing her neck... hehe and then i started teasing her. i won't tell u exactly wat i did but yeah... i think i did a good job of teasing her and i think she really liked it lol. but yeah, i miss her so much. I AM IN LOVE with her. I love her so much. she probably won't believe it but these feelings i have for her are nothing like anything ive ever felt before. this is a whole new thing to me. I love her so much. i hope that since its a new year she'll maybe stop worrying about a few things... like thinking im gonna hurt her. i would never do anything... ANYTHING to hurt her. i love her so much. all i want is to be with her. i can't wait for the day where i get to show her that she worried for no reason. i want to be with her for as long as i can. i know like its kinda crazy to say this but yeah... if i can i want to be with her forever. I seriously am in love with Jess. I want to be with her forever, i want to have kids with her, i want to be there for her for all the bad times she goes through and i want to be there to share all her good times, i want to grow old with her, i want to wake up each and everyday with her arm around me and her head on my shoulder. she's just so amazing. she's beautiful she's got an amazing personality, she has a great sense of humor and she has =) an amazing body. i can't stand it when she says she looks like crap. b/c 1 she never does, and 2 everytime she says she looks bad she really looks incredible. I am in love with this girl. I think about her allllll day long. The first thing i think about when i wake up is jess. the last thing i think of before i go to sleep is jess. I even have dreams about her. annnnd nooo they're not like dreams where we are having amazing sex on the beach at sunset (hehe but there have been one or two lol) there more like me just waking up in the morning and her being there next to me... then i go out and go to work and come home and she's out back (we have a huuuge house and alot of property lol) with the horses and helping our lil girl and lil boy with their horses. throughout the entire day i'll sit there and think about jess. ill sit there and think and wonder if she's thinking about me. I love her with all my heart. And I will wait as long as i have to to be with her. I love Jessica Agel-Stiles (hmmm hope i got that right! =) )
Kevin
Kevin