morbid thoughts for today
I read somewhere recently (was it in The Spell of the Sensuous?) that a shaman's role is to act as mediator between the people and the land. When there is an imbalance in the relationship between the people and the land due to the actions of the people, that imbalance will manifest as sickness and disease among the people.
We live life out of balance. Koyaanisqatsi
We reproduce faster than we are dying off. We have overpopulated this earth, taxed nature beyond its limits, killed off countless species. The list of damages to our relationship with the natural world can go on indefinitely.
The human race is a cancer on the body of the earth. We know this consciously or subconsciously and, as a result of this knowledge, are too slowly killing ourselves off through chemotherapy and even more slowly through radiation.
Because of this, it should come as no surprise that the number one disease in the US is now cancer. (Don't know about the rest of the world.) This does not mean that everyone who gets cancer deserves it because of their actions. This is not what I am saying. I am saying that the actions of the human race as a whole are directly reflected in our diseases, across the board. There is no fairness or lack thereof involved. It is something that simply is.
On a more personal level, with this realisation, I am appalled by the fact that I'm giving into my biological desire to further this cancer through pregnancy. I'm really, really torn about this. I think for the second child (if the first actually happens the way I think it will), I will look only into adoption. I do know that I'm more interested in having children, biological or not, than in being pregnant and giving birth (but, ooooh, that is such a strong drawing point for me). I want to be a mother, regardless of how it happens. There are so many children who need good homes, and I know we could provide one. Granted, with our being a triad, the authorities will likely say no way, thinking we're sexual degenerates that will invariably and irreversibly corrupt the impressionable young minds of orphaned, needy children. Nevermind the "it takes a village" theory of child-raising, wherein the more (healthy-minded folk), the merrier. Gah.
I dislike ethical conundrums.
I don't like the world right now.
And by world, I mean people.
We live life out of balance. Koyaanisqatsi
We reproduce faster than we are dying off. We have overpopulated this earth, taxed nature beyond its limits, killed off countless species. The list of damages to our relationship with the natural world can go on indefinitely.
The human race is a cancer on the body of the earth. We know this consciously or subconsciously and, as a result of this knowledge, are too slowly killing ourselves off through chemotherapy and even more slowly through radiation.
Because of this, it should come as no surprise that the number one disease in the US is now cancer. (Don't know about the rest of the world.) This does not mean that everyone who gets cancer deserves it because of their actions. This is not what I am saying. I am saying that the actions of the human race as a whole are directly reflected in our diseases, across the board. There is no fairness or lack thereof involved. It is something that simply is.
On a more personal level, with this realisation, I am appalled by the fact that I'm giving into my biological desire to further this cancer through pregnancy. I'm really, really torn about this. I think for the second child (if the first actually happens the way I think it will), I will look only into adoption. I do know that I'm more interested in having children, biological or not, than in being pregnant and giving birth (but, ooooh, that is such a strong drawing point for me). I want to be a mother, regardless of how it happens. There are so many children who need good homes, and I know we could provide one. Granted, with our being a triad, the authorities will likely say no way, thinking we're sexual degenerates that will invariably and irreversibly corrupt the impressionable young minds of orphaned, needy children. Nevermind the "it takes a village" theory of child-raising, wherein the more (healthy-minded folk), the merrier. Gah.
I dislike ethical conundrums.
I don't like the world right now.
And by world, I mean people.