... and the crap just keeps coming
-.- .... *sigh* so i'll just come right out and say it. My sister went to boise today supposedly to pick up her new boyfriend's clothes from his old apartment (he can't go because he's in jail .... oooh, another winner...) anyway.. while she was down there she had an abortion without telling us. so now we have to tell the family she was going to give the baby too that she 'miscarried'.
*sighs* as you all know i wasn't happy about her getting pregnant... but I never was upset with the actual kid she was carrying. she just sucked this life away without giving it a thought. I wish she hadn't... i really thought this would be a little boy. and we know the family and they said they'd send us pictures and they'd keep us updated and probably even see him throughout the years. I really wish she hadn't done this... it's murder in my eyes. i heard the heartbeat. how can something not be termed 'alive' if it has a heartbeart? i just don't understand how she can feel good about herself. that baby was part of her; he had parts of her in him... i hate it right now.
yeah... it was just one of those days. but Tami called -she always seems to know when i need to talk with her. I haven't seen her since her wedding... like... last year... but she's a good friend. the only friend i really have here. we aren't a 'go out to lunch every wed.' sort of friends. but we see each other and talk. mostly drive around and talk ^-^ heh. we went to a movie today; we went and saw 'When a stranger calls' I normally hate horror films like this; but TAmi loves them so I let her. she went and saw Lord of the Rings with me five of my nine times during Return of the King; so i figured it's not a big deal ;)
then when we came back to my house, she discovered my Buffy series. She game that little sly grin that said 'please please please!' and i just grinned, "Which one did you want to watch?" So from about 5:30 till 10:30 we watched Buffy and flipped to all the Willow and Tera scenes. She loves those two and i have to agree, they are the most real people on there, which ironically they are magic-weilding witches. heh ^-^ but yeah, we talked and watched Buffy and it was nice. and i now have her number in my cell phone! so i will NEVER lose her number again! joy!
bleh... oh yeah. and last night I got to thinking about the dragon in my book so I tried to at least do a rough sketch -and i'm actually starting to color it in. it turned out really well -but it doesn't look like the dragon in my book so it's a random dragon. the one i have in my head is... regal looking.... but i still really like the one i drew so i'll finish coloring it in and stuffs ^-^ teehee
and now i'll go to bed. i'm sleepy
~Mel
*sighs* as you all know i wasn't happy about her getting pregnant... but I never was upset with the actual kid she was carrying. she just sucked this life away without giving it a thought. I wish she hadn't... i really thought this would be a little boy. and we know the family and they said they'd send us pictures and they'd keep us updated and probably even see him throughout the years. I really wish she hadn't done this... it's murder in my eyes. i heard the heartbeat. how can something not be termed 'alive' if it has a heartbeart? i just don't understand how she can feel good about herself. that baby was part of her; he had parts of her in him... i hate it right now.
yeah... it was just one of those days. but Tami called -she always seems to know when i need to talk with her. I haven't seen her since her wedding... like... last year... but she's a good friend. the only friend i really have here. we aren't a 'go out to lunch every wed.' sort of friends. but we see each other and talk. mostly drive around and talk ^-^ heh. we went to a movie today; we went and saw 'When a stranger calls' I normally hate horror films like this; but TAmi loves them so I let her. she went and saw Lord of the Rings with me five of my nine times during Return of the King; so i figured it's not a big deal ;)
then when we came back to my house, she discovered my Buffy series. She game that little sly grin that said 'please please please!' and i just grinned, "Which one did you want to watch?" So from about 5:30 till 10:30 we watched Buffy and flipped to all the Willow and Tera scenes. She loves those two and i have to agree, they are the most real people on there, which ironically they are magic-weilding witches. heh ^-^ but yeah, we talked and watched Buffy and it was nice. and i now have her number in my cell phone! so i will NEVER lose her number again! joy!
bleh... oh yeah. and last night I got to thinking about the dragon in my book so I tried to at least do a rough sketch -and i'm actually starting to color it in. it turned out really well -but it doesn't look like the dragon in my book so it's a random dragon. the one i have in my head is... regal looking.... but i still really like the one i drew so i'll finish coloring it in and stuffs ^-^ teehee
and now i'll go to bed. i'm sleepy
~Mel