last day as asst
as I complete the last day as an assistant, I feel a growing distaste for the complacent nature that most of the folks I work with have.
so many times I see those with any ability to do more with their minds and their time squandered here. yet I am in a place of stalemate as well. my family , the absolute best part of my life and only part with deep meaning, has me waiting in impatient idle while my children grow. how I love them so.. and my beautiful wife , who is both smart and commanding.
yet with such gifts bestowed to me, I feel a yearning for more. I dream of greater responsibility , purpose. I have had an awakening in the past few years. something delayed to me years buried under self medicating and self doubt. but after I wake to a brilliant vibrant eager mind, I find myself dissapointed in my efforts and place in life.
on point of self realization is, Anton says it best. the eminent nice guy. always allowing those around me the open door as I hold it for them waiting my turn. this is my last lesson before the next stage. the death of the nice guy, the evolution to the leader. so maybe it is all on track anyways. maybe this is how the blossum occurs. through the expected leadership of a hard earned place, in hopes to grow into someone both relavent and prospureous .
here's a private toast to the days ahead, and hopes that I continue to always learn and grow, and never lose sight of what's truly important
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