weird
today would have been our 3 year anniversary. i wonder if this date will just always have meaning to me. i won't lie, i am wondering if he remembered. and, i guess it would make me a little happy to know he did.
ANYWAYZ.
stalling at its best. i was pretty good about studying this weekend. well kind of. i should be workin on shit right now cuz it's a busy week but...rather not. i almost feel like just takin a bath and crawlin into bed. lol. it's not even 7:30 yet. whatever. gotta work on studying for my nihongo test, preparing for soc discussion tomorrow, that fatty paper due wed, and gender scrapbook for thurs. i should celebrate on thursday.
let's see. yes change was hard. but then it confused me. lol. i really don't know what the hell is going on with all of that. i thought we were making deliberate changes without vocally addressing them, but maybe i was wrong. who freakin knows. i'll just go with the flow. it's all good. i really really do appreciate his calls. there are so many things that i need to talk to him about because he's removed. i can tell him about everything on my mind even if they involve drama w/ people around here cuz it's safe.
anywayz what else is new. umm... wednesday was taiko. homedude didn't show again, surprise surprise. lol. whatever. it's all good. the dynamics of the group are much different now that j isn't around, and s is off w/ her bf. jc and i get along much better, maybe by default, but i really enjoy it. lookin forward to havin our first performance in a few weeks at mar's spaghetti dinner. just something small and casual to kick-off the year.
wednesday night i chatted w/ e again for a few hours. always always fun times. did a lot of rambling about taiko...trying to figure out what that whole weekend meant to me and where do i go from here. can't believe he knew exactly where i was coming from, it was so comforting. i'm judgmental, critical, confused, and hurt by a lot of people. but i have to figure out how to turn that negative energy around rather than just running away or thinking i'm better. anywayz, after all that hardcore stuff we had the most interesting conversation about 'computer techniques.' lol. never would have expected to be having that convo w/ him, but it sure was entertaining and intriguing. i've been so intrigued since then. lazy doggy.
thursday i slept in, then went to check out sam's theatre as our venue for our spring concert. i fell in love with it. i was so worried we'd be screwed, it was such a relief. how exciting. spent the day w/ t&d, cooked dinner. watched er. had to cover my eyes for a lot of it. i don't know why that's my favorite show, i'm so damn squeamish.
friday...nihongo, downtown, dinner w/r. bomb! hella can't wait to play with the baby again. i don't even remember the last time we hella just chilled like that and got to talk about everything. much needed. good times. could NOT sleep that night. it was either the jasmine tea or the bomb.
so i hella slept in on saturday. went to school for a couple hours to work on the paper. ikea w/ the fam. chillin w/ the gurls. good times. school again early this morning for group meeting, candle party, more hw.
good weekend.
ANYWAYZ.
stalling at its best. i was pretty good about studying this weekend. well kind of. i should be workin on shit right now cuz it's a busy week but...rather not. i almost feel like just takin a bath and crawlin into bed. lol. it's not even 7:30 yet. whatever. gotta work on studying for my nihongo test, preparing for soc discussion tomorrow, that fatty paper due wed, and gender scrapbook for thurs. i should celebrate on thursday.
let's see. yes change was hard. but then it confused me. lol. i really don't know what the hell is going on with all of that. i thought we were making deliberate changes without vocally addressing them, but maybe i was wrong. who freakin knows. i'll just go with the flow. it's all good. i really really do appreciate his calls. there are so many things that i need to talk to him about because he's removed. i can tell him about everything on my mind even if they involve drama w/ people around here cuz it's safe.
anywayz what else is new. umm... wednesday was taiko. homedude didn't show again, surprise surprise. lol. whatever. it's all good. the dynamics of the group are much different now that j isn't around, and s is off w/ her bf. jc and i get along much better, maybe by default, but i really enjoy it. lookin forward to havin our first performance in a few weeks at mar's spaghetti dinner. just something small and casual to kick-off the year.
wednesday night i chatted w/ e again for a few hours. always always fun times. did a lot of rambling about taiko...trying to figure out what that whole weekend meant to me and where do i go from here. can't believe he knew exactly where i was coming from, it was so comforting. i'm judgmental, critical, confused, and hurt by a lot of people. but i have to figure out how to turn that negative energy around rather than just running away or thinking i'm better. anywayz, after all that hardcore stuff we had the most interesting conversation about 'computer techniques.' lol. never would have expected to be having that convo w/ him, but it sure was entertaining and intriguing. i've been so intrigued since then. lazy doggy.
thursday i slept in, then went to check out sam's theatre as our venue for our spring concert. i fell in love with it. i was so worried we'd be screwed, it was such a relief. how exciting. spent the day w/ t&d, cooked dinner. watched er. had to cover my eyes for a lot of it. i don't know why that's my favorite show, i'm so damn squeamish.
friday...nihongo, downtown, dinner w/r. bomb! hella can't wait to play with the baby again. i don't even remember the last time we hella just chilled like that and got to talk about everything. much needed. good times. could NOT sleep that night. it was either the jasmine tea or the bomb.
so i hella slept in on saturday. went to school for a couple hours to work on the paper. ikea w/ the fam. chillin w/ the gurls. good times. school again early this morning for group meeting, candle party, more hw.
good weekend.