Sometimes the motivation's not what I expect
This probably isn't the best time to be updating my LJ right now. I'm pretty pissed off, and I try not to do things while in this state of mind, but the urge suddenly struck me to do this update. I've been meaning to do it for quite awhile now, but I've had a severe lack of motivation to do so. Anger and frustration will have to suffice.
My girlfriend and I split up about two months ago, after being together almost two years. Surprisingly, this isn't even what I'm angry about. The breakup didn't affect me as much as it might have, possibly due to my realization that we made better friends than we did a couple. I haven't exactly talked to many people about it, so don't take it personally if I haven't told you already. I got sick of explaining the details to everyone... having to tell the story to my parents and my roommate was annoying enough. I just want to forget about the whole experience as much as I can, and move on with my life. The more I dwell on it the more it sickens me.
It's just come to my attention that I never reported on my graduation. Yes, after 6 long years at UCLA, I finally have a B.S. in Computer Science. I picked up the diploma at the end of 2006, and it's now hanging in a frame by my bed. Does it feel any different? Not really. I still live at the frat house, albeit a different room than I did during the summer. I still have the same job I had while I was a student. Both of these must change soon. Actually, I would love to get out of Los Angeles and move to San Francisco, a city I've been in love with since I was a kid. Every time I'm there the call becomes stronger.
The change of scenery should help things. I feel like I'm stuck in limbo right now. Or living out the plot of the movie Groundhog Day.
My girlfriend and I split up about two months ago, after being together almost two years. Surprisingly, this isn't even what I'm angry about. The breakup didn't affect me as much as it might have, possibly due to my realization that we made better friends than we did a couple. I haven't exactly talked to many people about it, so don't take it personally if I haven't told you already. I got sick of explaining the details to everyone... having to tell the story to my parents and my roommate was annoying enough. I just want to forget about the whole experience as much as I can, and move on with my life. The more I dwell on it the more it sickens me.
It's just come to my attention that I never reported on my graduation. Yes, after 6 long years at UCLA, I finally have a B.S. in Computer Science. I picked up the diploma at the end of 2006, and it's now hanging in a frame by my bed. Does it feel any different? Not really. I still live at the frat house, albeit a different room than I did during the summer. I still have the same job I had while I was a student. Both of these must change soon. Actually, I would love to get out of Los Angeles and move to San Francisco, a city I've been in love with since I was a kid. Every time I'm there the call becomes stronger.
The change of scenery should help things. I feel like I'm stuck in limbo right now. Or living out the plot of the movie Groundhog Day.