Excuse me are you there? It's life

Sep 13, 2008 14:41

So reality check: I've come to a couple serious revelations in my life: I am not untouchable, people still will do there best to get to me and time along with life stops for no man. I mean truthfully, I have to make 85% of me is a facade. I wear an incredibly huge mask all the time and I believe that no one can break through it. Life gets at you, but you keep rolling. The only thing you have to watch out for is when life out flanks you and is two steps ahead of you waiting for you at every turn. I mean how am I suppose to respond to that? I am not equipped to deal with multiple disasters at once. Give them to me onen at a time and I will tackle them one at a time.

I finally paid off my balance for last year so I can register. Only problem is I have enough money for like 9 credits. I'm going to be in school forever. There is nothing I can do about it. But I need to get it done right so that's what I am going to do. This along with trying to start Phi Mu Alpha. I hope i can do it all. Not for anyone else but this is so for me and I need this.

The rift between my family and me is growing constantly larger. I don't know what to do or say anymore. I'm at a lost. Every other word we say to each other is not positive and it makes me sick. I need to get some clarity and some focus. God give me the strength to do what is right and is just.

I'm realizing everyday who my friend are and who my friends aren't. It's funny how people get a little job or move somewhere else and yoru life is changed. I have always considereed my self an independent but I think its good for every one to have a core group of friends. I need to get back to my core. People that make me feel good all the time and make me want to be a better person. It is so hard to find people like that.

I'll probably write later but I have to go to work now. I need to repeat my motto everyday now

GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT AND JUST.
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