Sep 10, 2008 10:56
It's been about a year and a half since I've last written in here but I think I need to write because it would be extremely beneficial to me. I personally feel like I'm at such a low point in my life. I mean school is going fine even though I'm technically not in school. This is so frustrating to have to wait on other people because they don't feel like this is a necessity to themselves. I have to deal with it until I'm 25 at least. I pray that afterwards I won't deal with it anymore. It's hard to do things on your own and not have to wait on other people. I mean I never really get upset about anything and for the first time in my life, its starting to get to me.
I feel very blessed because I am very good at being positive and I have weeded out some very negative friends in my life. I also have made a really good new friend who is just positive energy and is great being around because of that. The world has many negative people and the last thing I need to be is around people like that.
My ex-girlfriend Kayla is making life an extreme difficulty for me. I mean we can be friends but we are not getting back together. Some maturity and growing up is required on her part. I'm not going to dawg her out but I need something a little more substantial. I want to be single but it's very odd because I like someone and I really don't want too. Now is not the time for that person or myself to be in a relationship. It's just funny how life throws these things at you. Your trying to stay clear but somehow it is thrown back to you. I just hope that some since of direction and guidance is shown to me. For now, I'm going to do nothing about it and hope that the situation resolves itself.
So a friend of mine started the music sorority Sigma Alpha Iota. For a couple years, I've wanted to start Phi Mu Alpha and I think now would be the best opportunity to start it since The women's chapter is well underway so I think that I am going to bring Phi Mu Alpha to FAU.
Well that's all I can type for now hopefully in a couple days, I'll remember to write again!!!