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hey you guys its been a while since ive updated. ive been trying to keep a good spin on things. but these days it just doesnt seem any fair to hide it anymore. i mean you have anger in your heart you should get it out somehow. this may hurt someone very dear to me. but you know what it needs to be said. jessi you cut me very deep. it was your fault and yours alone. im tired of trying to fix everything i did it cuz i was suppose to. that was my job and yet you took advantage of it. you always assumed i would be just waiting for you. no i dont wait on you. i dont wait for anyone. i loved you and i did not want to be put in a position where i had to be waiting for you to come back to me or me to come back to you. im sick of mind games. i always asked you when something was wrong and you never gave me a straight answer. you still didnt even tell me that you wanted to break up. you kind of waited for me to say something. think everyone can not make decisions for you. you have to make them for yourself. if you dont who will. obviously it wont be me. i love you but i cant be with someone who wants to play games and doesnt have a reality on things. i still dont knwo why you were upset. when i asked you were quiet. your always quiet. and you cant use that as thats just the way i am. if your always quiet no one ever knows how you feel... like me. you cant play quiet or act weird like that anymore its not fair to anyone especially you. so jessi i hope you take this thinking that im mad at you cuz i am. but i hope you take this thinking maybe hes right. yoru still 16 theres so much for you to do and learn. you havent even lived half your life. i know i havent but believe me there are some things ive experienced you would never want to. in your life. trust me. if you wanna write back or comment do what you have to do. as for me im going to go about my business because no more waiting i promise you that. i cant its rediculous to haveto do soemthign like that. true love will always prevail whether its us we will see. i hope your ok. i wish you the best. and be safe if you still wanna be friends thats fine but you still need to think about what i said.it will really help not only you but others around you i promise. ive never lied to you and i will not to this day. you dont lie to the ones you love... or keep secerts.