awake
hey
I'm bored so I decided to update.
day after my birthday woke up went to Amandas hung out there for a bit came home went to my physical, I have to say I hate having to pee in a cup someone out there prolly fucking has this sick fettish where they count down the days till their next physical so they can pee in a cup, I always miss I wish I were a guy much better aim.
ANYWAYS, went there than my physcologist, then out with my stepmom to Wal-Mart next day went out with Chel I think we're gunna join health trax that gym is amazing I've lost like 60 pds since 8th grade i wouldnt care too loose like 342692=06923=-6 more. Anyways we went out at night and stuff had a good time,
my mom got pretty fucking dystroyed she lives in Fort Myers so thats where the hurricane hit really bad their out of power for about a week, I got to go to the mall today with my grandpa as my birthday present he let me drive there and back I went through a stop sign in front of a hospital I'm sucha ass really. I packed up my room today it was the most depressing thing I've done. Alot of it is packed I'm just waiting for Jen to get home on Friday to tell me what I'm bringing and what is going into storage, after all that I went to my aunts for dinner it was fun I like being over there just now when I'm moving I rather be home.
On the way home my grandpa gave me this hugeeeeeee ass lecture fucking went to town on EVERYTHING I came home and cryed, I haven't in a while Tom's made me so happy I'm hardly ever sad. But when you avoid everything and let it catch up to you well it never takes long to catch up. I used to be sad alot during school, seemed like I had nothing better to do than sit in my closet and cry your prolly thinking what a fag but its honestly the truth. And partially the reason I go to a physcologist now. I'm really happy with who I am right now. I know alot of people don't like me, I'll never be OKAY with that but I'm learning to accept it. I have great friends a great ALMOST boyfriend lol, and a family.
I don't want to go back to school, cause of everything I've gained this summer is just gunna be lost. When school comes around that means..applying for Jobs, moving out, grades, tests, homework, looking for colleges, drivers ed. Fucking I wish I could skip ahead a year and be a senior I don't know what I'm gunna do when the girls leave their like my big sisters, my dad told me last summer to "get friends in my own grade" and now I see why he said that. Anyways. I'm just going on and on cause I'm bored and not to sleepy yet.
I haven't done anyyyyy of my summer reading woops. I get to see Tom tommrow thats like the highlight of my life lol, we have hardly anything in common but we get along so well I love being with him, espically 1 on 1 at my birthday I wasn't comfortable next year I think I'm having a big 18 person party at the house then like 4 of us can go to chillis this past year was a little to over whelming.
I've been using these crest white strips they burn the FUCK out of ur gums omggg mine turned white. I ask my mom for an MP3 player for my birthday she sends me crest white strips lol wtf, and yup I am really bored. lol, I feel bad for ANYONE that is actually taking the time to read this, soon I think I'm going to put the brown streaks back in my hair like I used to have in December and stuff I thought they looked cute I'm just waiting for my hair to grow out a little more, I have to take a trip up to Mills god help me to fix my schedule cause they put me in Geometry even though I failed Algerbra thats gunna be sooo depressing sitting down with effing freshman as a junior wow I'm a winner maybe I should have gone to summer school but I don't really regret it, I only have 2 study halls a week anyways, I've been watching Crazy Beautiful for the longest time I downloaded it a while ago and have been watching it foreverr, I think I'll buy it with the gift card to Borders that Austin got me. My grandpa is going back to Florida soon, which means I'll be able to really listen to music watch tv be on the computer do anything I want once again for like 5 days lol, cause then I'll be moving Warped tour is in a couple of days I remember when I couldnt wait but this move has honestly made me really not want to anything but stay at home while I can, fucking makes me angry cause this show is going to be amazing!, I really need a job if anyone knows where I can work let me know, alot of my family forgot my birthday I missed out on alot of good gifts..that blows lol, I'm sucha taker I suck anyways this entry is really effing long I'm gunna go to bed and get stoked to see Tom tommrow <33
me n chel I'm all hunched over what the effffff
cow girls yall.