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Today I spent about 6 hours lost in an amazing book called "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" I've read alooot of books. but let me tell you, I'm in love with it. It's about a boy named Charlie who writes letters to this "unknown" person, describing his first year of high school. The friends he makes, the friends he losses, his first time drinking/smoking. His first time falling in love. The problems in his family. His english teacher that teaches him a lot more than english. IDK. He's an incredible person in this book. I swear everything he said he felt I've felt before. I feel like I'm part of the book. I love books like that. Theres nothing like relating to a book. Theres nothing like reading a book all day and never being bored with it. Page turners. To be honest, I didn't want to book to end. But they always do. Eh, regardless... sunday's really suck. Even if I have tomorrow off. I'm not having very much fun here. Allll my friends are at cheerleading like they've done since freshman year. Something I've never been apart of. (in high school) Someday's I regret it cause I don't feel as close to them but other days i remember why i didn't do it and that's what makes me forget about it. That books making me think a lot. It was so good. Wow. Have I mentioned that? Sorry. =) I'll stop. But I've got to leave you with some memorable quotes from the book that just might make you want to get lost in it too.
Bob started passing around food.
"Would you like a brownie?"
"Yes. Thank you."
-- I ate the brownie, and it tasted a little weird, but it was still a brownie, so I still liked it. But this was not an ordinary brownie. Since you are older, I think you know what kind of brownie it was.
"I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other."
"I think it was the first time in my life I ever felt like I looked "good". Do you know what I mean? That nice feeling when you look in the mirror, and your hair's right for the first time in your life? I don't think we should base so much on weight, muscles, and a good hair day, but when it happens, it's nice. It really is."
"I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't."
"Everyone else is either asleep or having sex. I've been watching cable television and eating jello."
"Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. To make this all go away. And disappear. I know that's wrong because it's my responsibility, and I know that things get worse before they get better because that's what my psychiatrist says, but this is a worse that feels too big."
" I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."
"..And in that moment, I swear we were infinite"
PS
I love you
Bob started passing around food.
"Would you like a brownie?"
"Yes. Thank you."
-- I ate the brownie, and it tasted a little weird, but it was still a brownie, so I still liked it. But this was not an ordinary brownie. Since you are older, I think you know what kind of brownie it was.
"I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other."
"I think it was the first time in my life I ever felt like I looked "good". Do you know what I mean? That nice feeling when you look in the mirror, and your hair's right for the first time in your life? I don't think we should base so much on weight, muscles, and a good hair day, but when it happens, it's nice. It really is."
"I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't."
"Everyone else is either asleep or having sex. I've been watching cable television and eating jello."
"Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. To make this all go away. And disappear. I know that's wrong because it's my responsibility, and I know that things get worse before they get better because that's what my psychiatrist says, but this is a worse that feels too big."
" I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."
"..And in that moment, I swear we were infinite"
PS
I love you