Happy Birthday, Gage, wherever you may be!It seems like only yesterday I held you and tried to comfort you. At the same time it was a lifetime ago that we said goodbye. I can only hope that you are some place better now where you won't hurt ever again. I wish I could see you one last time but know that it will only come when we're both ready for ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I did a really good update on Gage and such. So I figured since I'm a damn slacker I'd do it today while I had a chance to ( Read more... )

Comparitively Emanuel fucking rocked! PCMC is so fucking ghetto. The nurse leaves his beside with the rail still down and she never tells me anything. It's like "Your son has hydrocephalus." "Oh thanks! Like I didn't already know that." They did a shunt revision and popped the cyst so they could drain it. As far as they can tell everything went ( Read more... )

Random phone calls rock, yo! I was part of two of them today. The first was actually made by me to Shad. I woke him up (poor baby!) but he was supposed to go to work anyway so I think I did him a favor. We bullshitted for a while and I had tons of fun. We discussed the President's plans for Mars and the moon and Shad had an idea. He thinks we ( Read more... )

Why is it so hard to just pack up Gage and leave like I want to. I know I can't get financially stable on my own but I more than likely can't do it with Justin either. I don't like being ignored because he wants to look at porn. I hate that its my entirely responsibility to take care of Gage and I'm supposed to get a job. He didn't even take his ( Read more... )

I went to see a doctor today for the first time in a while. I had a pap-smear done (hurt like hell) then she (Paula the midwife) did a basic checkup and a breast exam. She mentioned that my cervix looks pregnant and then said something about one of my nipples needing to be engorged so I could breastfeed properly (Lorraine, is this normal?). I am ( Read more... )

Well, here I am living at Dad's and trying to ignore him and Diann as much as I can. Things really aren't that bad its just frustrating because Justin has no set place to stay and he keeps complaining to me about it. I don't mean to make him sound like a bad person he just gets to me sometimes. His sister keeps trying to tell him to join the Navy ( Read more... )