HEY!
I figure that i might as well start up with the journal again. It is almost summer and all, i might be all over this thing when i am bored this summer. i have been up to my leadership duties of contacting 8th graders. i have a good feeling about next season, i dunno about the rest of the leadership. i have a feeling that we have a few powerhouses in our section, maybe not koji but good enough. nothing really going on in my life right now, i am trying to hold on to my Bs in my classes with a grip of death. i guess i will see how it goes when we get report cards. if i get lower than Bs, i think that i will scream. i dont need my GPA to get any lower than it already is. something complicated is going on in the romantic interests section of my life. i have been attached to one person for like an eternity and right now i feel something towards another besides that one obsession. it would appear to be almost as a miracle that would break the cycle of me liking this girl for so long, but the one that i recently have taken an interest into is like the last person on earth that a relationship would work with. too many friends would get mad, she probably wouldnt touch me with a ten foot pole. too complicated for me, but then again that is what always draws me in. for some reason i love to have complication in my life. i guess it just keeps things fresh or something. anyway, i can get away from the complication this summer when i am all alone. i wonder if i will be all alone at home again this summer. i always seemed to stay away from people last summer. i guess it is my time to think and be myself and try to mature and see things more clearly. who knows what will happen, i just want to get through the last day of school. i like to think that magically my life will clear up once school is over. of course i dont even really feel any excitement about school ending. i am unemployed, i have no money, i feel distant from everyone, i dont know what to do with my romantic interests. whatever, magic is much more comforting. it will be better tomorrow afternoon. somehow.