Hon has this disease too
Alright, I'm sixteen and I'm pretty sure I know the business. I think I have it down; business and money and education and girls and everything else you need to know about. Some things, however, are really rather troublesome. Like physics and quantum stiff, right? No one on earth understands that, but no one really needs to know it. But I sort of have that in my pocket as well. I know enough to talk about, that should be good enough for a lifetime. A few very important things are like that in the world; you never know the full story, but you know enough to talk about it and dance around it, and that's enough to get by.
Guys and transition are like that for me, I think. Girls I have worked out, but guys is another sort of problem. Sometimes you just want to be someones friend and they back off, sometimes you just want to hang around with someone and they try to become your best friend. Closeness and similarity of lifestyle are difficult things to gague but also to reconsile. If I like a guy but he just wants to be friends with me, we both lose, right? I wish I could just have everything show and have everyone agree with it be compatible with it. As it stands right now, you can never tell someone you love them without them throwing a freakout. Chill out, man, okay, right? If I want to tell a guy I want to be with him, I can't. And If I don't get it out, I dont think it'll work out how I want. Boys are a troublesome equation. If I only had to deal with one, life would be a lot better for me. One day, and then everything can be out in the open and I can tell my parents and stuff and stop pretending to like chicks for everyone. It's a stupid waste, but I can't do without it. Complicated.
I'll figure it out one day.
Guys and transition are like that for me, I think. Girls I have worked out, but guys is another sort of problem. Sometimes you just want to be someones friend and they back off, sometimes you just want to hang around with someone and they try to become your best friend. Closeness and similarity of lifestyle are difficult things to gague but also to reconsile. If I like a guy but he just wants to be friends with me, we both lose, right? I wish I could just have everything show and have everyone agree with it be compatible with it. As it stands right now, you can never tell someone you love them without them throwing a freakout. Chill out, man, okay, right? If I want to tell a guy I want to be with him, I can't. And If I don't get it out, I dont think it'll work out how I want. Boys are a troublesome equation. If I only had to deal with one, life would be a lot better for me. One day, and then everything can be out in the open and I can tell my parents and stuff and stop pretending to like chicks for everyone. It's a stupid waste, but I can't do without it. Complicated.
I'll figure it out one day.