Poor Piano
For a long time, music, more appropriately, piano is relaxing pathway for me. Anytime when i play piano, i could leave my troubles, unhappiness, tension and pressure aside. And it could drive away my anger and fury.
But, today, it seems not effective. Is it because of me? Is it my own problem, i shouldn't blame? Just because i was told something by my 8-year-old nephew, my good mood suddenly gone totally. And i sank into the bottom of sea.
Playing the "Sacro-Monte" by the Spanish composer, Joaquin Turina. It was one of my grade 8 practical pieces which i scored the highest. It is full of enthusiasm and emotive. I threw all the unhappiness and fury on the piano...(opps..sorry, poor piano). It is quite a good song to play if you are angry. But it made me exhausted.
After that, those song full with happiness, i can't play. Yet those expressive, kinda sad piece, eg. Eleana, Concerto Des Etoiles, A Comme Amour, Love Story By Richard Clayderman, also being played furiously by me.... What the.....
Am i too childish? Did i think too much? Maybe... I shouldn't be so surprised or shocked when i fall into this kind of situation. As i am not at my place, i should behave myself right? Yup!! I did... But sometime problems existed not because of oneself. At times, we are powerless and impotent (not important) because of other's emotion. What can i do? Maybe i should ignore, and pretend nothing had happened. That would be better for me, in this kind of situation right? ...
I am not sure, as i am not so agree, but i have to.
Yea...Maybe ... ...