Arrgh, arrgh, arrrgh.

[keltickefiwolf]

Haven't been around much lately partly because of yet another problem I've yet to have mentioned here.. Kinda similar to Rob's difficulties- losing functionality of both my hands (and sometimes down to my toes) due to some pretty extensive nerve compression up and down my spine. It's made manual tasks much more of an undertaking than they should be-- and this, of course, includes drawing and typing. Been going to physical therapy three times a week, my appointments mostly (and quite conveniently!!) coinciding with Rob's. I've been in much pain and discomfort, I've been extremely moody and avoidant... I've been tired. And then there's the small but nagging fear in the back of my mind that I'll continue to deteriorate as I age, and that this'll eventually spell the death of my ability to use my hands to create art. I'm 23... My body shouldn't be crapping out on me THIS early in the game.

Thanks to everyone who has commented on any of my previous entries.. It means a lot to me that you guys still read what I write. I love receiving comments, as I'm sure most of us do, and I apologize profusely for not getting back to so many of you, or commenting myself... Please, please try not to take it personally, though I know by now it's probably become pretty difficult not to.

Damn... And I haven't checked my voice mail or returned phone calls to anyone but family for well-over two months now... I fucking hate it when I'm this reclusive.

Good news is, if I can get clearance from the doctor, I may be able to return to work soon.. I feel like such a loser relying so heavily on my girlfriend for financial support.