Just don't.

[kelsemaroo]

I've used so many analogies like digging holes, raising white flags and pressing the reboot button.
I can't seem to get out of that mindset.
I can't stop thinking about how other people think.
I can't stop thinking the worst of things.
I can't stop these more and more constant up and down mood fluctuations
I want them to stop, but I can't.
And don't tell me I need to be or think positive. That's bullshit.
All positivity does is set you up for disappointment.
Don't tell me I need to go out and do something or get a hobby.
Don't tell me you understand. There are very few that can even imagine how my mind works.
Don't tell me you're sorry. There's no reason to be. It's my life and my mind that's messed up.
Don't pity me. Don't give me your time or your reassurance.
Just don't care. Things are better that way. My brain and my heart hurt less.