alone and confused
i don't think i have ever felt this alone and confused. this has been the strangest last few days of my life and they just keep getting weirder. i opened up to 4 people and only one of them has helped me. one. i think it would help if people showed they care. i know they do, but show me. it'd make me feel better. i just need someone to tell me it's going to be okay and that they are here for me. i'd give anything for lisa to be here with me right now.
what is worse is that i'm afraid i'm going to fall back into my shell. these last 2-3 months have been amazing and i'd hate to think one day, one incident could change that. i just feel empty. i can't eat. sleep is going alright. i need no more work. i need some free time. i need some fun. i need a friend. i need a hug.
but alas, i'm alone and very confused. i know i'm making no sense considering i'm not giving the whole story, *shrugs* i just wish you were here