Aug 16, 2008 18:11
Okay one and all. It is official I will be in Tucson November 1-12. I will be going to Southern so I guess I will start having to hunt down camping equipment. If you are not going or even if you are I hope to see all my friends when I get there.
And yes, I am seriously thinking about moving back. Turns out you really do need that pesky degree thing.
What prompts this you may ask? Well on the way home from Pennsic Jed and I broke down on the PA Turnpike. Not the best spot to break down in case anyone was wondering. And there we are, steam pouring from the car, I really did think that we were on fire, no help in sight. And Jed's asking if there's someone I call. The answer was no. That was it. Right there. The exact moment when I thought I want to go home.
You could have literally knocked me over with a feather. I spent so many years wanting to get away from Az now suddenly it was home? I wasn't sure if this revelation was brought on by the stress of the situation or the fact that I had just spent 10 days with many of my Aten friends or what. For once in my life I am determined not to act impetuously. Not the case with the last move. So I am in part coming to Az to figure out if this is what I really want or if I am just being silly.
One thing is certain something has to change because yours truly is sick of living hand to mouth. I would like to have crazy things like savings and a decent car. And somehow I think that the novel is going to be in progress for alot longer. I am starting to think that if the college thing works out this time I might look into a career in publishing. Hey if I can't get my own works published then maybe I can help others make their dreams come true.
For now I am trying to examine who I am and what I really want out of life. In a practical way this time as opposed to my normal dreamy way. So here's hoping that I make the right choice this go round.