Epiphany
Every once in a while you have one of those moments. You know the ones where the clouds part and the light comes shining down on you. Where all of life suddenly becomes clear, you know where you’ve been and where you want to go. Tonight was my night. And so in an effort to fully appreciate and remember for all time the resolves I made while on my walk tonight I am writing them here for all the world to see. Okay maybe not the world but a select few.
Resolution One: I will stop worrying about what other people think I should be doing with my life, what kind of job I should have, how I should look, think, act or feel. After all I am the one living my life and the only person I have to make happy is me.
Two: I will stop worrying so damn much about if people like me or not. I think that I am a pretty good person. Yes there is room for improvement, but isn’t that true of all of us? So if you don’t like me for who I am then that is your loss.
Three: I will get my shit together financially. That way I can someday actually own a house or hey even a car that doesn’t have to go to the shop once a month.
Four: I will pursue my dreams, even if they don’t always make the most sense. If there is one thing I learned from my uncle’s passing it is that you never know how much time you have.
Five: While it would be nice to have a man I do not need one! Everything I want to do, own a home, travel, and have children I can do by myself. It may not be as much fun but it is all still doable.
Six: No more casual sex. Let’s face it, it’s never that good, I always end in feeling like a whore and no matter what he says at the time the guy will never look at you the same afterward. Besides I am a big girl and can take care of myself in that department as well.
So there they are. The ways I am determined to live my life from this moment forward.