So Confused
I really don't know what's going on. Like... Justin wants me to be his girlfriend, and then do stuff, and be all happy.. call him, go to his house, hang around with him at school, talk to him on MSN, go to his house on the weekends.. but I guess I do too. I dunno. And then his mom is being all weird, saying that we're not allowed to talk on the phone for as long, and not going to his house.. stuff like that.. It's so messed up. He just really pisses me off right now...
I don't think I wanna be with him anymore. I'm sick of how I feel. He wants to drink.. but I dunno. I guess I'm just really jealous of him being able to go off with his friends whenever he wants and drink and smoke weed and do whatever he wants and his parents don't really care. But then me.. his girlfriend.. going to his house and all that we pretty much do is sleep and hang around, and then him being able to go and get drunk on the weekends with his friends and they care more about me hanging around with him than his druggie friends. I dunno.. I shouldn't really say that about his friends cuz they're cool, I'm just not a fan of being second.
I'm sick of how I feel. Because when I'm with him, everything'll be all fine, but then I come home and start thinking to myself and I wonder if I'd be better off by myself. Like, I'm only 17 and I have a whole life to get to be with just one person. Being a teenager should be about having fun with friends and messing around, joking, and not having to worry about someone else affecting my decisions.
I dunno what's going on.. I'll try and figure this out later..
MICHELLE N JULIA ARE COMING UP TOMORROW!!!
FIREMENS' FAIR IS JUNE 18th!!!
-Kelly-