That's Just The Way It Is--Some Things Will Never Be The Same..
Well then. I was actually on the phone with Jerry tonight.. it was different. Justin went up to the skatepark in Windsor for the day.. GOOD! We're kinda having "issues" right now.. not sure what's really going on.. I just find myself getting more irritated when I talk to him.. Like I was going to hang around with him this weekend, but then I found out that K-Sea's moving, so I was going to hang out with him before he left, so that's what I've been doing. But when I told Justin, he got all mad at me and didn't understand why I would say that I was going to hang around with him and then change my mind. He thinks I do that too much and I'm "not being fair". I dunno.. I just wish things wouldn't get all messed up.
I was talking to Michelle earlier too about the Firemen's Fair and Calan. I think I'm gonna go out and get him.. Firemen's Fair is June 25-26th (Friday and Saturday).. but I'm not sure about anything else. I think Justin n Myles were coming down and we were gonna go out and stay somewhere.. if not we're coming back to my house.. but I don't know where Calan would go.. and I don't think that I'd be able to drive him home.. I dunno what's going on.. I can't wait though! I always have so much fun at the Firemen's Fair.. although Eric told me that he doesn't want to go to this year's fair is "partially" because of me.. oh well.. we broke up.. what.. 6 months ago and he still dwells on stuff. I dunno.
I'm waiting for mom to come home.. she worked 1-9pm.. and I was gonna see if she'd let me go and get Justin and bring him down.. I was thinking about going to the Commons tomorrow up in Halifax because Justin wanted to go there and bike.. not too sure about what's going on with that yet though. And I asked Jess if her and Mitchel would come with, and she said that she would.. but she's gotta figure out if she's going to see her grandfather or not.. and Michelle n Sean might come too.. all depending.
Aww man.. My neck really hurts.. and my back.. I think it has to do with something.. but it's kinda embarrassing to talk about.. lets just say.. it's some kind of medication (and yes, it was properly prescribed..) Got some chest-growth.. hurts though. I don't like it..
I'm so excited for summer! I can't wait! I'll be babysitting, but that's only during the week, so the weekends will be full of going to the Valley and beaches.. so fun! I need a new bathing suit though.. should probably go shopping for that sometime. And then by the end of the summer I'll have my own car! Mom said that it would be a really good idea to get a job up in Windsor seeing how that's where I usually am.. plus being close to the school I could just go to work right after work.. she's a good thinker.. might even still be with Justin by then so that would be convienent too.
Everything's Changing.. it's kinda scary.. hopefully everything will work it's own way.. that's what usually seems to end up happening, right? I suppose... I just wish that some things wouldn't change. Like, sometimes I feel that the only person that I can count on is Mom. She seems to be there through the good times and the bad ones.. she's there for me when I need someone to talk to, or just to have upstairs in my room watching tv. If I'm having guy-problems.. she's there listening to me bitch and complain.. she makes me feel better when I'm sick, and she'll actually listen to me and care about how I feel and what I'm saying.. I just love her so much and I don't know what I would do without her.. she's so amazing! Okay.. enough of that weirdness..
I think I'm just gonna laze around for now til mom gets home and see if she'd actually let me go out and get Justin.. hmm... it's debatable.. Well seeing how Sheldon and Alex are gone til tomorrow, it could be possible cuz then I'd just sleep in Alex's bed and he could stay in my room.. we'll see....
-Lekki- (kelly)