Jaded
You know... life hasn't been a cake walk lately. This whole mess with Andrew has made life in the family extremely difficult, to say the least. It's not not fair that the innocent get punished and the guilty seem to get off scott free.
I guess what's on my mind this morning is what was on my mind yesterday morning... After drinking with a certain someone I used to date night before last, it was brought to my attention that I just need to not take sex so seriously. I need to act just like these stupid men that are just out for a piece of ass. I scoffed at the thought. I think it's positively disgusting to just see someone out at a bar and take them home with you. Call me a hopeless romantic or old fashioned but I want more that just a one night stand and the guilt that follows because, unlike most, I have morals and a conscience. Anywho, the boy I was previously referring to tried to convince him that I should have sex with him. First of all, he's a good friend that I enjoy hanging out with and I wouldn't want to mess that up. Second, like I mentioned before, I'm not a slut. At any rate having him pay attention felt good, but it felt even better for me to have the balls to just say no. I'm rather proud of myself. I guess the only thing that really bothers me is that he really would have just taken advantage of the situation and become yet another ass for me to bitch about.
Man... if I ever find another man that 1) is decent looking 2) has a good job 3) a college degree 4) no kids 5) no psycho ex's 6) good teeth 7) respects his mother 9) makes me laugh 10) likes to just cuddle 11) is sarcastic and 12) won't try to fuck me the first chance he gets... damn-it... I'll marry him.
I guess what's on my mind this morning is what was on my mind yesterday morning... After drinking with a certain someone I used to date night before last, it was brought to my attention that I just need to not take sex so seriously. I need to act just like these stupid men that are just out for a piece of ass. I scoffed at the thought. I think it's positively disgusting to just see someone out at a bar and take them home with you. Call me a hopeless romantic or old fashioned but I want more that just a one night stand and the guilt that follows because, unlike most, I have morals and a conscience. Anywho, the boy I was previously referring to tried to convince him that I should have sex with him. First of all, he's a good friend that I enjoy hanging out with and I wouldn't want to mess that up. Second, like I mentioned before, I'm not a slut. At any rate having him pay attention felt good, but it felt even better for me to have the balls to just say no. I'm rather proud of myself. I guess the only thing that really bothers me is that he really would have just taken advantage of the situation and become yet another ass for me to bitch about.
Man... if I ever find another man that 1) is decent looking 2) has a good job 3) a college degree 4) no kids 5) no psycho ex's 6) good teeth 7) respects his mother 9) makes me laugh 10) likes to just cuddle 11) is sarcastic and 12) won't try to fuck me the first chance he gets... damn-it... I'll marry him.