Feeling Like an Idiot
You know... there are few things in life worse than being made a fool of and today, that's just what I feel like... a fool. I've always wanted to believe that people were honest and true and that they mean what they say and despite the fact that this is rarely the case, I continue to live in my own little delusional world. I used to call myself naive, but now I think I'm just being plain stupid. I don't want to become the cold-hearted bitch that I'm contemplating turning into but I almost feel like I have to, not only to protect myself but more so because I have lost hope that true goodness really does exist.
I think the biggest reason why I'm feeling so down is that I let myself down. I told myself that I wasn't going to be so easily swayed and I ended up doing nothing but disappointing myself.
Having the tendency to make something of nothing, most would say that I'm completely overreacting... maybe I am. Maybe being me is just hazardous to my own health!
Fuck it! I'm going out tonight, having me a margarita or two... or ten, and having a blast with the people that I know are good people... my friends.
I think the biggest reason why I'm feeling so down is that I let myself down. I told myself that I wasn't going to be so easily swayed and I ended up doing nothing but disappointing myself.
Having the tendency to make something of nothing, most would say that I'm completely overreacting... maybe I am. Maybe being me is just hazardous to my own health!
Fuck it! I'm going out tonight, having me a margarita or two... or ten, and having a blast with the people that I know are good people... my friends.