Wow

Oct 12, 2004 23:06

And here I thought I was worth more than only the things I did for others. Apparently I was wrong.

Cut for those who aren't interested )

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adifferentdrum October 13 2004, 05:37:14 UTC
I know we've had our differences of opinion several times but I've always considered you one cool chick in my book. ^-^ I know you have your issues and I have mine but it's okay. Really.

And about the not saying 'Hi' thing... yeah... I'm sorry I never dropped a note to you really since our days of ED since well... I don't game anymore and when I log in for five seconds and disconnect that's usually because I clicked the wrong buttong on my taskbar. @_@ I'm serious here. I still have your cell number and wether or not it's still the right one I've thought of calling you several times just to see how you're doing... but I felt since we weren't as close as say you and Philia I shouldn't intrude like that-- by the way that's just a me issue that I need to get over. I honest to goodness get nervous when I vocalize to people and wind up sounding like an idiot... kinda like now. @_@

I remember that post you made about the Hi thing... and actually I totally identified with you... I felt the exact same way you did. Ever since I stopped gaming NO ONE save Philia or B-chan have bothered to reach out and give me the time of day OFF the game. I actually felt really bad that your comment was INDEED directed at me and several others... when I didn't know I was a part of that generalization when I was suffering from the same problem as you. >_>_

To be honest I enjoy your posts, however rare they are. I do miss them and I normally ask Philia how you're doing. Ask her. I enjoy your artwork when you post it and believe that you've gotten downright DANGEROUS at coloring. I may not comment because a lot of the time I don't know what to say truth be told.

I can understand why you dropped me from your FLIST for a second time now because well... I don't talk about Mu*s and it's all about stuff going on in my RL Life and college and yeah... I admit it... it's pretty fucking dull. But I keep my LJ for me even if when I think more often than not people just skip my entries because I'm not fawning over the latest anime or I'm not doing the latest fad in roleplay. I'm living.

I think you're perfectly justified in stepping down from Staffing at BGM. I totally agree you were shit on far too many times that I can count. I will note but this isn't directed at you that it's just a game and friends should come first.

Personally... I say you have changed. BUT! For the better. I feel sorry that you had to deal with all these children that want to belong to all the latest clubs and think they're so mature when all they're doing is spinning thier wheels and getting mookie eyed when the new hot toy comes with a Kung-Fu Action grip.

And I'm possibly going to catch total shit for being the one to say that... but hey... I was on the fringes since the start anyway I was never in the 'Hip Crowd'.

Just know this Kel... Even if I botched the 'Hi' thing horribly... I still consider you a friend. The End.

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kelen October 13 2004, 05:55:03 UTC
Man, thank you. u.u I don't need people agreeing with me 100 percent, and I am far, far from perfect, but it's so nice to actually HEAR from someone.

How about from here on out we both try to talk more? I'm willing to make the effort if someone else is too. <3

I mean.. I don't call people I don't find interested and good people my friends. o.o You are indeed interesting and a good person.

Thank you.

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adifferentdrum October 13 2004, 15:12:59 UTC
Dood. Yeah. ^-^ We totally need to talk more. ^-^ However I reccomend over Trillian instead of the games since I don't y'know... log into them. ^.^;;;; You can find me under HE Switchboard on AIM and my ICQ# is 29838226 Or we can trade numbers if you like. ^-^ I have free long distance on my houseline so I don't mind footin' that bill. ^.-

And I agree that your not perfect but neither am I. You're just a human being like everyone else. ^-^

<3

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kelen October 13 2004, 19:42:40 UTC
And me never much logging into those programs. @.@

Phone is fine. n.n Just not going to post it here. Guess it'll have to be that and LJ. :)

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adifferentdrum October 14 2004, 02:07:54 UTC
YAY! Telly-o-phone! *O*

Just don't mind my incessant rambling since when I get nervous it's a complete defense mechanism. @_@;;;;

You can email me at westbaylen at cox dot net to see if I still have the right number. Or I can just ask you flat out is it the same one since Ota? o_o

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loneguardian October 13 2004, 18:53:31 UTC
I say you have changed. BUT! For the better.

I agree thoroughly with that. ^^

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kelen October 13 2004, 19:42:49 UTC
Thanks. <3

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