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Its funny how in this sea of darkness theres one light that shines through to guide us. I had two. I had a few actually, now they're all extinguished. People I could rely on, people at work who were part of my life for a few hours a few days a week. They're all gone. ALL OF THEM. Except for maybe Jess but she's not interested in helping me any more. They took my friday off me. My favourite shift. The one day that wasn't a weekend, the one day there was no manager, just us girls running the shop. And they fucking took it. They took Tieshan, Ben and Andrew cause Head office are arseholes. Sorry guys but I don't think I can make it to America at the end of the year, its just too hard in my current financial situation. I was trying. I was aiming to it, I was. But now...now I just want to drown in the sea I was watching today with my friend.I was standing there, just thinking how good it would be to jump off the cliff and crack my head open on the rocks below.
My depression's back, in full force. I have no one to lean on. I Could lean on Blackie and Kaze but they're on the other side of the world. I love you people, I Do. I'm gooing to go hide in my hole now.
My depression's back, in full force. I have no one to lean on. I Could lean on Blackie and Kaze but they're on the other side of the world. I love you people, I Do. I'm gooing to go hide in my hole now.