I'm going to be a busy bee!!
Well, I got my schedule for the Roadhouse for this week (FINALLY!) It really sucks they do their scheduling week to week....It would be so much easier if it could be like McArdles where you have set shifts and you work those no matter what...My life would be so much easier!! Anyway, here's my schedule up until Sunday night at 9:00 PM...
Monday 6/14 - Lunch @ McArdles
- Dinner at Mcardles
Tuesday 6/15 - Lunch @ McArdles
- Dinner at McArdles
Wednesday 6/16 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Thursday 6/17 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Friday 6/18 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Saturday 6/19 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Sunday 6/20 - Dinner at McArdles
So in fewer words, I'm working double shifts Monday thru Saturday (of this week) and then Sunday I go into McArdles form 3:30 to about 8:30. I better get used to this type of schedule because I know it's going to be my life ofr the rest of summer, unless I start waitressing at McArdles (which would be sweet!!). My ass is going to be tired, but it'll be OK, I mean what else do I have to do? I'm grounded until...I don't know when. If anyone wants to come and see me, whether or not I'm grounded, come to either Roadhouse or McArdles, since that's where I'm going to be living.
Kristy, I am soooooo sorry I can't make it to your Graduation Party. If I get out early enough Saturday night and it's alright with my parents, I'll stop by after work. Let me know how late you think your party will go...I'll have a good idea by Friday at the latest of how late I stay there making salads. I just don't want to ask for time off already when this is only my first week. I'm sorry...I'll try and make it up to you!
So last night I wrote my Mom and Dad and e-mail and my Dad responded. He said the same shit I knew he would! He wrote this whole thing on how he and my Mom were right and were always right and how everytime they asked about more hours at McArdles or applications for new jobs, I always had a bullshit excuse. So tell me if I'm worng....Saying that places weren't hiring or they would call me next week, or there wasn't anything open at that moment but I could fill out an application...these are bullshit excuses? I heard from more then one person that it was hard finding a job this summer...I mean come on!! I already have 1 job, yes, I only have 30 hours (my Dad wants me to have 40), BUT I could always fill in!!! Plus with Mcardles wanting to train me, there are more hours and a lot more money. As Mark put it last ngiht, "It's business". My parents are acting like I owe the manager at Roadhouse something because he gave me this job, I know I committed to them, but how many of you have quit a job because you didn't like it tr you weren't getting enough money?
My parents think I'm being this difficult teenager and and I don't respect them and that bullshit. Just because I threw a party...which, as my Aunts have informed me, my Dad did pleanty of times when he was my age...I'm suddenly a horrible daughter and can't be on my own. Yes I know I lied to them, but over my life time, how many times have they lied to me and let me down? I mean those little white lies add up. Plus, if I quit Roadhouse when the waitressing job is for sure and is in stone, it won't look to my parents as me making an adult decision and me learning for myself, it will look to them as me disobying them and being immature and trying to make myself (and no one else) happy. I'll only be looking out for myslef and won't consider anyone else's feelings....UMMM excuse me! 95% of the tiem I put everyone else before me, doesn't matter who they are...I mean look at why I'm grounded!! I knew what I was doing was wrong and in the back of my mind, someting wasn't right and I had a feeling...Instead of telling everyone to leave, what did I do? Have someone get more beer (which I paid for....ALL of it!!) because we were running low. If I was looking out for myself, I would have charged everyone drinking $5, but what did I do? I fronted the cost and let them drink for free...It seems whenever I try and be nice to people, it bites me in the butt. I really need to learn how to stand up and say NO to people...Yeah I have an awesome party house, but it seems when I have people over, either I get caught or I'm stuck cleaning up, or paying $100 for people to throw up in my bathroom and then cleaning it up. Yeah, lucky me!
Take a look at how my brother has been treating me. He's grounded and can't go anywhere, but what did he do today when no one was home? He snuck out of the house with his girlfriend! I've done every little thing my parents asked me to do and I'm still grounded and the bad child. My brother does every little thing imaginable behind my parents back and he's the good one?!?! He's suppossed to have 30 hours a week this summer and he doesn't even have a secure job! His old boss at Powers Farm Market has been calling, but Joe won't call him back...He goes to Hank Parker and asks for a job. The manager (who's a total pot-head) said sure and gave him one shift! That was Sunday he worked, and so far that's all he will work. He's worked once and all of a sudden he has a job?! The guys up there don't even have a schedule for their employees...Joe told me he heard that if you don't show up to work for a month, the managers won't care and that's why he wanted that job. Because you can make your own hours and get tons of time off...Meanwhile, my parents are attacking me because I have too many jobs to chose from???? What the fuck is that? If I waitess and hostess, I'll be making a shitload and they're havign a problem with that!
You may be asking why don't I tell my parents what my brother does behind their back? Well, 2 reasons. 1) He would deny it, and since I'm the "bad child that lies all the time" they would believe him. 2)He has so much dirt on me, I would definetly be grounded for a lot longer then I am now. Plus I really liek Sarah, she's so great for my brother, even though he treats her like shit) I don't want my parents to bring her into it. But it really pisses me off because up until the end of Senior year, I did EVERYTHING my parents asked and asked before I did anything, whether it was going out with friends (which I was always home before curfew) or picking up a shift at work..anything, I asked. Joe on the other hand, is sneaking out of the house when he's grounded, treating my parents like shit, beating the shit out of me and my younger brother (Joe pushed me down a flight of stairs after he punched me in the spine), smoking pot in the field or tree fort on any given night of the week, or drinking all my parents alcohol (which they blame on New Year's) and he's the one getting off easy!!!!
God!!!!! I absolutly hate my family right now (except for Michael) and I need to get out of here!!!! I don't want to work at the Roadhouse, I don't want to see my brother's face anymore, and I want to talk to my parents, but they don't listen (Do you know what that's like? Having something that bothers you so much and crying over it for a whole night and not being able to talk to your parents because they would roll their eyes, laugh, or walk away? I mean I cried last night because all of this shit is building up inside me and I can't let it out, and my Mom came into the living room and goes "Why are you crying?!" In the tone of voice like "you have no reason to cry, you're a baby, it's your fault not mine, we haven't done anything wrong") Right then I knew I can never tell my parents anything...I'm seriously thinking I should see someone and have them tell my parents...Can doctors tell someone something if their patient wants them to? Hmmm....I'll have to look into that.
Wow, it's already 4:30 and I have to be at work in 15 minutes. Again, thank you to everyone who reads this and puts up with me....believe me, if you had a family like mine, I'd be there for you in a second. Don't get me wrong, they can be great people, but when you're upset or want to do something on your own, you don't want to be associated with them. OK, now I really have to go. I'll hopefully see everyone soon. Bye
Monday 6/14 - Lunch @ McArdles
- Dinner at Mcardles
Tuesday 6/15 - Lunch @ McArdles
- Dinner at McArdles
Wednesday 6/16 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Thursday 6/17 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Friday 6/18 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Saturday 6/19 - Lunch at McArdles
- Dinner at Roadhouse
Sunday 6/20 - Dinner at McArdles
So in fewer words, I'm working double shifts Monday thru Saturday (of this week) and then Sunday I go into McArdles form 3:30 to about 8:30. I better get used to this type of schedule because I know it's going to be my life ofr the rest of summer, unless I start waitressing at McArdles (which would be sweet!!). My ass is going to be tired, but it'll be OK, I mean what else do I have to do? I'm grounded until...I don't know when. If anyone wants to come and see me, whether or not I'm grounded, come to either Roadhouse or McArdles, since that's where I'm going to be living.
Kristy, I am soooooo sorry I can't make it to your Graduation Party. If I get out early enough Saturday night and it's alright with my parents, I'll stop by after work. Let me know how late you think your party will go...I'll have a good idea by Friday at the latest of how late I stay there making salads. I just don't want to ask for time off already when this is only my first week. I'm sorry...I'll try and make it up to you!
So last night I wrote my Mom and Dad and e-mail and my Dad responded. He said the same shit I knew he would! He wrote this whole thing on how he and my Mom were right and were always right and how everytime they asked about more hours at McArdles or applications for new jobs, I always had a bullshit excuse. So tell me if I'm worng....Saying that places weren't hiring or they would call me next week, or there wasn't anything open at that moment but I could fill out an application...these are bullshit excuses? I heard from more then one person that it was hard finding a job this summer...I mean come on!! I already have 1 job, yes, I only have 30 hours (my Dad wants me to have 40), BUT I could always fill in!!! Plus with Mcardles wanting to train me, there are more hours and a lot more money. As Mark put it last ngiht, "It's business". My parents are acting like I owe the manager at Roadhouse something because he gave me this job, I know I committed to them, but how many of you have quit a job because you didn't like it tr you weren't getting enough money?
My parents think I'm being this difficult teenager and and I don't respect them and that bullshit. Just because I threw a party...which, as my Aunts have informed me, my Dad did pleanty of times when he was my age...I'm suddenly a horrible daughter and can't be on my own. Yes I know I lied to them, but over my life time, how many times have they lied to me and let me down? I mean those little white lies add up. Plus, if I quit Roadhouse when the waitressing job is for sure and is in stone, it won't look to my parents as me making an adult decision and me learning for myself, it will look to them as me disobying them and being immature and trying to make myself (and no one else) happy. I'll only be looking out for myslef and won't consider anyone else's feelings....UMMM excuse me! 95% of the tiem I put everyone else before me, doesn't matter who they are...I mean look at why I'm grounded!! I knew what I was doing was wrong and in the back of my mind, someting wasn't right and I had a feeling...Instead of telling everyone to leave, what did I do? Have someone get more beer (which I paid for....ALL of it!!) because we were running low. If I was looking out for myself, I would have charged everyone drinking $5, but what did I do? I fronted the cost and let them drink for free...It seems whenever I try and be nice to people, it bites me in the butt. I really need to learn how to stand up and say NO to people...Yeah I have an awesome party house, but it seems when I have people over, either I get caught or I'm stuck cleaning up, or paying $100 for people to throw up in my bathroom and then cleaning it up. Yeah, lucky me!
Take a look at how my brother has been treating me. He's grounded and can't go anywhere, but what did he do today when no one was home? He snuck out of the house with his girlfriend! I've done every little thing my parents asked me to do and I'm still grounded and the bad child. My brother does every little thing imaginable behind my parents back and he's the good one?!?! He's suppossed to have 30 hours a week this summer and he doesn't even have a secure job! His old boss at Powers Farm Market has been calling, but Joe won't call him back...He goes to Hank Parker and asks for a job. The manager (who's a total pot-head) said sure and gave him one shift! That was Sunday he worked, and so far that's all he will work. He's worked once and all of a sudden he has a job?! The guys up there don't even have a schedule for their employees...Joe told me he heard that if you don't show up to work for a month, the managers won't care and that's why he wanted that job. Because you can make your own hours and get tons of time off...Meanwhile, my parents are attacking me because I have too many jobs to chose from???? What the fuck is that? If I waitess and hostess, I'll be making a shitload and they're havign a problem with that!
You may be asking why don't I tell my parents what my brother does behind their back? Well, 2 reasons. 1) He would deny it, and since I'm the "bad child that lies all the time" they would believe him. 2)He has so much dirt on me, I would definetly be grounded for a lot longer then I am now. Plus I really liek Sarah, she's so great for my brother, even though he treats her like shit) I don't want my parents to bring her into it. But it really pisses me off because up until the end of Senior year, I did EVERYTHING my parents asked and asked before I did anything, whether it was going out with friends (which I was always home before curfew) or picking up a shift at work..anything, I asked. Joe on the other hand, is sneaking out of the house when he's grounded, treating my parents like shit, beating the shit out of me and my younger brother (Joe pushed me down a flight of stairs after he punched me in the spine), smoking pot in the field or tree fort on any given night of the week, or drinking all my parents alcohol (which they blame on New Year's) and he's the one getting off easy!!!!
God!!!!! I absolutly hate my family right now (except for Michael) and I need to get out of here!!!! I don't want to work at the Roadhouse, I don't want to see my brother's face anymore, and I want to talk to my parents, but they don't listen (Do you know what that's like? Having something that bothers you so much and crying over it for a whole night and not being able to talk to your parents because they would roll their eyes, laugh, or walk away? I mean I cried last night because all of this shit is building up inside me and I can't let it out, and my Mom came into the living room and goes "Why are you crying?!" In the tone of voice like "you have no reason to cry, you're a baby, it's your fault not mine, we haven't done anything wrong") Right then I knew I can never tell my parents anything...I'm seriously thinking I should see someone and have them tell my parents...Can doctors tell someone something if their patient wants them to? Hmmm....I'll have to look into that.
Wow, it's already 4:30 and I have to be at work in 15 minutes. Again, thank you to everyone who reads this and puts up with me....believe me, if you had a family like mine, I'd be there for you in a second. Don't get me wrong, they can be great people, but when you're upset or want to do something on your own, you don't want to be associated with them. OK, now I really have to go. I'll hopefully see everyone soon. Bye