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Oh, look! Look what happened to my dear baby just the other day!
It was horrible! Just horrible, knowing everything I can ever accomplish in any way about Közi is it! On top of all the frustration and all my fears right now, the PC decided to... I don't know what, just give up on me, just like that, together with the AMD Athlon(tm) XP 1600+, 1.39 GHz and 384 Mb of RAM! When you switch it on, it just didn't budge, it was in a coma! No start up, no pretty grey letters and letters and numbers and system checks... none! I was so scared... I thought, what will happen now? What will happen to all my projects, everything I planned to do for Közi; the rest of things I started.. all the things I have in it! And all the things it has in it... like... that pretty ACPI! Or all the Maxtor thingies, any relationship between it and the RADEON 7000 series! And all the SiS codecs, adapters, connections! Or the MPU-401 and.. and all the codecs, little prorams and sooooo on! Not to mention... The shock of losing all the files and the entire terminal. People learned about this and got to get it fixed... I felt really like.. like seeing everything I have left gutted like that. Good grace, if this thing was alive.. that must have really hurted! It really was one big operation it went through!
It did that same trick to me last spring. It was a Trojan Horse that totally killed the HDD. It just... broke because of the overload of CPU usage due to that... that brat gnawing on its every possible 0 or 1 going through it! It just... died, and didn't want to start up, just like this time. This was what I was so afraid of... that it's happening again. Last spring I definitely went through a hard time of HDD transplantation where only half of the things worked and wanted to transfer from the infected one to the new one installed. The rest.. I had to restore from a scratch. It seemed almost unimaginable to me, going through over a 100 sites, half of which were even no longer existing, and pick up things... Not to mention all the programs and plug-ins I lost. Of course I record everything I can on CD-s. But.. how can you put 30 Gb of all kinds of things on a CD of 700 megs? Sure, the stuff I'm talking about is really no more than 6-7 Gb, it's copable. But.. well, all the programs and such... *shudder*
I was really afraid I'd have to go through all that once again this time. Although the anti-virus programs and such said there's nothing wrong, like a virus or something. My father was certain that it is some hardware problem but I was so scared I just couldn't believe him. "It does the same thing like last time, how is it supposed not to be the same reason!?" And for three days I was in this black hole. Not to mention all the fears with Közi, all the worries and anxiety... plans, theorising, etc. etc. and this on top. My father tried to fix it with exchanging hardware, because he was sure it was hardware. I almost completely redid the entire wireage inside... and again, nothing. Yesterday afternoon the PC ended up in a repair service. I don't know what exactly they did with it... but it's okay now.
IT WAS JUST THE AIR-CUSHIONS BLOWN! I felt SO DAMN ridicilous in the end!!!
God... you can surely say I love my computer. But... well... it's only because it's the only thing I have left to wake up for. To make something... anything related to or for Közi with it. It's not just some tool, though... I really love my PC. I must have looked really pathetic sitting there holding some cables jutting out of it. But being honest... if I had something with Közi again... the last thing on the world I'd do is.. "hold the hand of the PC" in that metaphorical way. I feel really strange... because it means so much to me but only because it's my first and only way to accomplish and make something for Közi. If it wasn't for him... I don't know, maybe I'd just... I don't know. Things, and the links between things are very strange. Spork, I was there, holding the cables the junction with the rest of the hardware of which.. ends in... well... Közi. Almost everything I actually have of him... is in this 10x7 or so santimeters of a HDD box... on a round thingy inside... with less than 10cm diameter... *squirms*
I could never bare losing all this once again. Now I have an entire case of blank CD-s but still... I can't have EVERYTHING on them. And I need all that everything to get along with the last thing I can still drag at least an inch ahead with.
It was horrible! Just horrible, knowing everything I can ever accomplish in any way about Közi is it! On top of all the frustration and all my fears right now, the PC decided to... I don't know what, just give up on me, just like that, together with the AMD Athlon(tm) XP 1600+, 1.39 GHz and 384 Mb of RAM! When you switch it on, it just didn't budge, it was in a coma! No start up, no pretty grey letters and letters and numbers and system checks... none! I was so scared... I thought, what will happen now? What will happen to all my projects, everything I planned to do for Közi; the rest of things I started.. all the things I have in it! And all the things it has in it... like... that pretty ACPI! Or all the Maxtor thingies, any relationship between it and the RADEON 7000 series! And all the SiS codecs, adapters, connections! Or the MPU-401 and.. and all the codecs, little prorams and sooooo on! Not to mention... The shock of losing all the files and the entire terminal. People learned about this and got to get it fixed... I felt really like.. like seeing everything I have left gutted like that. Good grace, if this thing was alive.. that must have really hurted! It really was one big operation it went through!
It did that same trick to me last spring. It was a Trojan Horse that totally killed the HDD. It just... broke because of the overload of CPU usage due to that... that brat gnawing on its every possible 0 or 1 going through it! It just... died, and didn't want to start up, just like this time. This was what I was so afraid of... that it's happening again. Last spring I definitely went through a hard time of HDD transplantation where only half of the things worked and wanted to transfer from the infected one to the new one installed. The rest.. I had to restore from a scratch. It seemed almost unimaginable to me, going through over a 100 sites, half of which were even no longer existing, and pick up things... Not to mention all the programs and plug-ins I lost. Of course I record everything I can on CD-s. But.. how can you put 30 Gb of all kinds of things on a CD of 700 megs? Sure, the stuff I'm talking about is really no more than 6-7 Gb, it's copable. But.. well, all the programs and such... *shudder*
I was really afraid I'd have to go through all that once again this time. Although the anti-virus programs and such said there's nothing wrong, like a virus or something. My father was certain that it is some hardware problem but I was so scared I just couldn't believe him. "It does the same thing like last time, how is it supposed not to be the same reason!?" And for three days I was in this black hole. Not to mention all the fears with Közi, all the worries and anxiety... plans, theorising, etc. etc. and this on top. My father tried to fix it with exchanging hardware, because he was sure it was hardware. I almost completely redid the entire wireage inside... and again, nothing. Yesterday afternoon the PC ended up in a repair service. I don't know what exactly they did with it... but it's okay now.
IT WAS JUST THE AIR-CUSHIONS BLOWN! I felt SO DAMN ridicilous in the end!!!
God... you can surely say I love my computer. But... well... it's only because it's the only thing I have left to wake up for. To make something... anything related to or for Közi with it. It's not just some tool, though... I really love my PC. I must have looked really pathetic sitting there holding some cables jutting out of it. But being honest... if I had something with Közi again... the last thing on the world I'd do is.. "hold the hand of the PC" in that metaphorical way. I feel really strange... because it means so much to me but only because it's my first and only way to accomplish and make something for Közi. If it wasn't for him... I don't know, maybe I'd just... I don't know. Things, and the links between things are very strange. Spork, I was there, holding the cables the junction with the rest of the hardware of which.. ends in... well... Közi. Almost everything I actually have of him... is in this 10x7 or so santimeters of a HDD box... on a round thingy inside... with less than 10cm diameter... *squirms*
I could never bare losing all this once again. Now I have an entire case of blank CD-s but still... I can't have EVERYTHING on them. And I need all that everything to get along with the last thing I can still drag at least an inch ahead with.