Management
I am ambitious. I am greedy. I desire too much. I want too much. I hunger for more, of everything good.
Is there anything wrong with that? No, it is perfectly normal. But why do I get so dissatisfied and unhappy easily?
Because I never managed my expectations.
And if putting up a few walls of management makes me altogether a happier and more satisfied person- Isn't that worth it?
"I want to be in UK. Why am I not there. He (or rather, they) get(s) to study there free. I get paid peanuts to roll in the mud and carry out meaningless orders." "He did not deserve it. He just had his parents pay him through". blahblahblah.
"I want to be in UK. Its not going to happen soon, but at the right time, i will go. I did not work hard or have the capabilities enough to deserve something like that. My parents do not deserve to sponser an education for me overseas. There is no problem with doing what I have to do and serving my term for the nation, there's a right time for this, and a right time for UK."
There, a simple reasoning in God-like fashion and attitude points me back in the right perspective. But sooner or later its going to switch, when the going gets tough. When I start to loosen up the chains of management over my thoughts and emotions again. When I talk back to God (like i have, definitely), about his plan and purposes for my life. After a while i will get even tired of management, and loose all sense of purpose of what's good and bad and what makes me happy or unhappy all over again.
And trust me, that is not a place we should be at.
God, i don't want to loose perspective of it all again. Its not going to happen for a second time. God, I am going to press in hard on all that you're holding on to, and seek you for those hands to open and for those things to pour into my life. How? With all my heart, soul, mind and strength. And I know that at the right time, when I have stood the test, You will be faithful to grant me the desires of my heart. And even if you don't here on earth, there it will be- my prize and place already prepared by you up there in heaven when you went ahead of me way before time.
May the eyes of my heart never lose sight of Your movement here on earth in these times.
Is there anything wrong with that? No, it is perfectly normal. But why do I get so dissatisfied and unhappy easily?
Because I never managed my expectations.
And if putting up a few walls of management makes me altogether a happier and more satisfied person- Isn't that worth it?
"I want to be in UK. Why am I not there. He (or rather, they) get(s) to study there free. I get paid peanuts to roll in the mud and carry out meaningless orders." "He did not deserve it. He just had his parents pay him through". blahblahblah.
"I want to be in UK. Its not going to happen soon, but at the right time, i will go. I did not work hard or have the capabilities enough to deserve something like that. My parents do not deserve to sponser an education for me overseas. There is no problem with doing what I have to do and serving my term for the nation, there's a right time for this, and a right time for UK."
There, a simple reasoning in God-like fashion and attitude points me back in the right perspective. But sooner or later its going to switch, when the going gets tough. When I start to loosen up the chains of management over my thoughts and emotions again. When I talk back to God (like i have, definitely), about his plan and purposes for my life. After a while i will get even tired of management, and loose all sense of purpose of what's good and bad and what makes me happy or unhappy all over again.
And trust me, that is not a place we should be at.
God, i don't want to loose perspective of it all again. Its not going to happen for a second time. God, I am going to press in hard on all that you're holding on to, and seek you for those hands to open and for those things to pour into my life. How? With all my heart, soul, mind and strength. And I know that at the right time, when I have stood the test, You will be faithful to grant me the desires of my heart. And even if you don't here on earth, there it will be- my prize and place already prepared by you up there in heaven when you went ahead of me way before time.
May the eyes of my heart never lose sight of Your movement here on earth in these times.