the climax
I've been thinking about art lately, about what it means, what it is, what i'm passionate about, why its about saying something yet why it can also be about expressing things not meant to be worded or inked somewhere. Its the swirling, yeah its about the constant swirling, not a still or a memo.
Why does it even attract me? the moment of inspiration, the spark that ignites a whole chain of awesomeness. The one idea to start something truly brilliant. Its the same feeling- the one i always tried to coax out of a beer and some swirly ambience.
And yet i do get that sometimes, by actually reading my bible and most importantly, letting it get to me.
The problem is this: Creative people in general.. we expose ourselves so much to gain something that others won't usually get, but the result is a shortchange. We let external ideas, good or bad consume us totally in order for us to churn something usable, something which makes sense, something which says something important aka. the creative process to happen, before a product is formed at the end. But many times, we just get shortchanged. We don't get what we want, it doesn't always come, we fight losing battles for years and only the few victories get us where we are or want to go. And many more years wasted for us to actually start surviving. We'd sacrifice anything, money, time, sleep, friends, family, counsel, etc just for that spark, that climatic moment. We value that more than anything else in the world because it is big, and many people don't see the magnificence in that- the sheer size of the spark..
But is this really worth it? When I get that a whole lot too, by exercising the same thing on a boring black book called the bible and submitting to a Being i've grown up knowing all my life. Yes, maybe the sparks don't come everytime. My mind isn't blown enough reading John 3:16 again and again for me to keep exposing myself to this entity.
But should i be complaining for the lack of sparks? When i know this Being will never ever shortchange me.
There must be adequate seeking in order for us to value the things we seek for. Thats why we don't love instant noodles or bread that much, because they're so easily accessible but we value things that require effort, hardwork, and a whole lot of waiting to get.
There must be a perspective shift when we start to chase after big things. We cannot view God as big, but far, far away on another planet. And then continue clinging on to our pathetic, and to some extent even worthless (paul considers all things loss) methods and formulas of generating our ideas of what big is. These two are slowly coming together for me lately. if i choose and continually credit all these great experiences and moments of great feeling /knowing /inspiration to sparks given of by the divine Creator, then everything changes suddenly. i DO have the hack into this world, i CAN understand what Glory is, as isaiah prophesized, "for the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea", in His time.
I don't know about my future or what it holds, but i will do this- I will invest my time, my money, my effort, my heart, soul, mind and strength into an entity that will not shortchange me. And its this relationship with Christ. It is the precious pearl worth selling everything away for, it is the anchor which keeps the soul, so we will not stray to the left or to the right. It is our identity, so we will not be tossed to and fro by the waves that come and hit us over the course of time. It is the foundation built upon the rock, not sand, so that it will not be eroded when the floods rise.
I believe that if i pray hard enough, get rooted in the word deep enough, then Jesus will take me deeper into a real deep. That is the place where everything would flow naturally, free-spiritly, peacefully and beautifully. And come on, we know the truth in our hearts don't we? We know we've not prayed enough and are not deeply rooted in the word enough. Not that it'll never be enough, but if there's unsettling in this area, nothing productive is going to happen. So start praying enough, start talking to your creator, the only one who knows you intimately. Start confessing because there's nothing to lose, and start receiving because He cares. Even if things don't come, He knows what he's doing. He spaces out his presence for a reason and soon, we all receive so long as we don't give up.
Why does it even attract me? the moment of inspiration, the spark that ignites a whole chain of awesomeness. The one idea to start something truly brilliant. Its the same feeling- the one i always tried to coax out of a beer and some swirly ambience.
And yet i do get that sometimes, by actually reading my bible and most importantly, letting it get to me.
The problem is this: Creative people in general.. we expose ourselves so much to gain something that others won't usually get, but the result is a shortchange. We let external ideas, good or bad consume us totally in order for us to churn something usable, something which makes sense, something which says something important aka. the creative process to happen, before a product is formed at the end. But many times, we just get shortchanged. We don't get what we want, it doesn't always come, we fight losing battles for years and only the few victories get us where we are or want to go. And many more years wasted for us to actually start surviving. We'd sacrifice anything, money, time, sleep, friends, family, counsel, etc just for that spark, that climatic moment. We value that more than anything else in the world because it is big, and many people don't see the magnificence in that- the sheer size of the spark..
But is this really worth it? When I get that a whole lot too, by exercising the same thing on a boring black book called the bible and submitting to a Being i've grown up knowing all my life. Yes, maybe the sparks don't come everytime. My mind isn't blown enough reading John 3:16 again and again for me to keep exposing myself to this entity.
But should i be complaining for the lack of sparks? When i know this Being will never ever shortchange me.
There must be adequate seeking in order for us to value the things we seek for. Thats why we don't love instant noodles or bread that much, because they're so easily accessible but we value things that require effort, hardwork, and a whole lot of waiting to get.
There must be a perspective shift when we start to chase after big things. We cannot view God as big, but far, far away on another planet. And then continue clinging on to our pathetic, and to some extent even worthless (paul considers all things loss) methods and formulas of generating our ideas of what big is. These two are slowly coming together for me lately. if i choose and continually credit all these great experiences and moments of great feeling /knowing /inspiration to sparks given of by the divine Creator, then everything changes suddenly. i DO have the hack into this world, i CAN understand what Glory is, as isaiah prophesized, "for the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea", in His time.
I don't know about my future or what it holds, but i will do this- I will invest my time, my money, my effort, my heart, soul, mind and strength into an entity that will not shortchange me. And its this relationship with Christ. It is the precious pearl worth selling everything away for, it is the anchor which keeps the soul, so we will not stray to the left or to the right. It is our identity, so we will not be tossed to and fro by the waves that come and hit us over the course of time. It is the foundation built upon the rock, not sand, so that it will not be eroded when the floods rise.
I believe that if i pray hard enough, get rooted in the word deep enough, then Jesus will take me deeper into a real deep. That is the place where everything would flow naturally, free-spiritly, peacefully and beautifully. And come on, we know the truth in our hearts don't we? We know we've not prayed enough and are not deeply rooted in the word enough. Not that it'll never be enough, but if there's unsettling in this area, nothing productive is going to happen. So start praying enough, start talking to your creator, the only one who knows you intimately. Start confessing because there's nothing to lose, and start receiving because He cares. Even if things don't come, He knows what he's doing. He spaces out his presence for a reason and soon, we all receive so long as we don't give up.