GazettE in Cologne
I don't even really feel like writing a report about the live anymore, but I guess I have to get this off my chest. (Before I forget half of the details. XD) How to say it in a short way? Half of me was totally flashed and excited and happy, the other half was miserable, if only because I nearly broke down physically. Never thought that would happen to me the way it did.
First of all, I don't think I'll ever wait outside a concert hall for more than eight hours again. It wasn't really that bad, because I had a blanket to keep me quite warm, an umbrella which kept me relatively dry despite the rain and some friends (both old and new ^^) to keep me company. But in the evening I could feel how it really had drained my body of a lot of power. My barely-there appetite is to blame for a great part of it.
After the gates opened we could get into the hall quite quickly. I was surprised and happy, because when Kao and me reached the area in front of the stage, we were like in the eighth row, and two of our younger friends were right in front of us. Also, we were standing exactly in front of Reita's place, which is what we wanted, as Kao is a huge fan of Aoi and we figured it'd be the best place to see both him and the rest of the band. But well, I should have known it: After the concert started, the crowd moved so much that not only did everybody nearly fall at one moment (I was like O__O) but after one or two songs I ended up directly in the middle, in front of Ruki. Wtf?! It's not that it was so bad in itself, as I eventually even got to be in like the fourth row, which was pretty close, but due to Ruki I could hardly see Kai. T___T It was sooo nerve-wracking for me!
The performance was awsome! >.< But well, there was no recognizable AC and we weren't allowed to take bottles into the club, so it was just so damn hot and very soon I felt awfully dehydrated. It seemed like it was hard for GazettE, too, because they took so many breaks in between the songs to drink and wipe their faces. For once I was glad that Ruki spit and poored so much water into the crowd. XD Formerly, I thought I'd evade him with the towel I brought, but in the end I thanked him when once the water splashed right into my face. It was bliss, I tell you!
I was not that weak that I would have collapsed or something, but really did not feel well. When the main part was over, I felt so miserable for not being able to shout "Encore" for more than ten times or so. Most people around me were the same, and we all were so afraid they'd not come out again. So, when the lights went on and Kai came on stage with the bandana around his face, I screamed my already raw lungs out and started crying. And well, that was really too much stress for my body. In the mail I sent earlier today I could have very well written "Kai, I vomitted between my own feet because of you!" But well, that wouldn't have been nice. XD And really, my body shook and stuff, but I only vomitted a tiny little bit. >.> After that I stood still for quite a while and didn't shout anymore, which was such a pity during "Ride with the Rockers", but oh well... The girl next to me was really nice, as she kept asking me if I was okay. ^^ Looking back at it I'm a little scared myself that, though I stayed where I was without collapsing until the end, I took my body to its limits because of those five men. Never would I have thought for a band to become that important to me.
What else can I say? I expected to cry during "Taion", but when the fans actually fell almost quiet in the beginning and Ruki sang without a microphone, tears just sprang to my eyes! o.o It was sooo awsome! I mean, I had seen and heard Ruki do this before, I was at two lives when he did it even, but still it was so incredibly beautiful this time, up close. I even whimpered so loudly that the two girls in front of me turned around and looked at me strangely. XD
One time, quite in the beginning, Reita spit on stage. o.o You pig! XD But he was sooo cute! *dies* I had the feeling he looked into my direction when I did Parapara. X3 Uruha I could barely see. Pity. >.< I think it was during "Kantou...", the ultimate fanservice song XD, that he went to Ruki and proposed they'd do something together, but Ruki just smiled and waved him off. XDDD Actually, no yaoi-fanservice at all, but that doesn't really matter. ^^ Aoi was the poser he always is, raising his shirt one or two times to show his belly. XD~ He was very cute, too.
Though the stage lightning and stuff, and most of all Ruki XD probably prevented it, I'm still hoping Kai at least once saw that I had his name-kanji written on my hand. I held it up so often that in the end I had to support my arm with the other. >.>
Just as I thought I didn't really like the tour goods that much. XD Well, I bought the black/white T-shirt which was sold at earlier shows, too (I think) and a bandana. The staff was strange... When I ordered the shirt, he told me "We only have that one in XL-size" and I stupidly blinked at him and nearly spat "I don't care!". Well, guess what? It fits me perfectly as if it was M or L! XD And the other shirts looked even smaller, oh my... *shakes head*
After getting back by train I went to sleep at about 7 am and slept until 1 pm. I felt a lot better after that, but my stomach still won't accept too much food at a time. O.o Strange. Also, quite quickly after getting up I started to get crying attacks again and again. That was even stranger. As I wrote in the beginning, in itself it was an awsome live, performance-wise and just for the fact how close I was to them. But as I couldn't fully enjoy it... I just don't know. Or it is really Kai doing this to me. Actually I wrote him that, too. Just as I also wrote that I'm joining the fanclub soon, that I'll collect money and see them at a live in Japan one day again. Oh yes, I will!
First of all, I don't think I'll ever wait outside a concert hall for more than eight hours again. It wasn't really that bad, because I had a blanket to keep me quite warm, an umbrella which kept me relatively dry despite the rain and some friends (both old and new ^^) to keep me company. But in the evening I could feel how it really had drained my body of a lot of power. My barely-there appetite is to blame for a great part of it.
After the gates opened we could get into the hall quite quickly. I was surprised and happy, because when Kao and me reached the area in front of the stage, we were like in the eighth row, and two of our younger friends were right in front of us. Also, we were standing exactly in front of Reita's place, which is what we wanted, as Kao is a huge fan of Aoi and we figured it'd be the best place to see both him and the rest of the band. But well, I should have known it: After the concert started, the crowd moved so much that not only did everybody nearly fall at one moment (I was like O__O) but after one or two songs I ended up directly in the middle, in front of Ruki. Wtf?! It's not that it was so bad in itself, as I eventually even got to be in like the fourth row, which was pretty close, but due to Ruki I could hardly see Kai. T___T It was sooo nerve-wracking for me!
The performance was awsome! >.< But well, there was no recognizable AC and we weren't allowed to take bottles into the club, so it was just so damn hot and very soon I felt awfully dehydrated. It seemed like it was hard for GazettE, too, because they took so many breaks in between the songs to drink and wipe their faces. For once I was glad that Ruki spit and poored so much water into the crowd. XD Formerly, I thought I'd evade him with the towel I brought, but in the end I thanked him when once the water splashed right into my face. It was bliss, I tell you!
I was not that weak that I would have collapsed or something, but really did not feel well. When the main part was over, I felt so miserable for not being able to shout "Encore" for more than ten times or so. Most people around me were the same, and we all were so afraid they'd not come out again. So, when the lights went on and Kai came on stage with the bandana around his face, I screamed my already raw lungs out and started crying. And well, that was really too much stress for my body. In the mail I sent earlier today I could have very well written "Kai, I vomitted between my own feet because of you!" But well, that wouldn't have been nice. XD And really, my body shook and stuff, but I only vomitted a tiny little bit. >.> After that I stood still for quite a while and didn't shout anymore, which was such a pity during "Ride with the Rockers", but oh well... The girl next to me was really nice, as she kept asking me if I was okay. ^^ Looking back at it I'm a little scared myself that, though I stayed where I was without collapsing until the end, I took my body to its limits because of those five men. Never would I have thought for a band to become that important to me.
What else can I say? I expected to cry during "Taion", but when the fans actually fell almost quiet in the beginning and Ruki sang without a microphone, tears just sprang to my eyes! o.o It was sooo awsome! I mean, I had seen and heard Ruki do this before, I was at two lives when he did it even, but still it was so incredibly beautiful this time, up close. I even whimpered so loudly that the two girls in front of me turned around and looked at me strangely. XD
One time, quite in the beginning, Reita spit on stage. o.o You pig! XD But he was sooo cute! *dies* I had the feeling he looked into my direction when I did Parapara. X3 Uruha I could barely see. Pity. >.< I think it was during "Kantou...", the ultimate fanservice song XD, that he went to Ruki and proposed they'd do something together, but Ruki just smiled and waved him off. XDDD Actually, no yaoi-fanservice at all, but that doesn't really matter. ^^ Aoi was the poser he always is, raising his shirt one or two times to show his belly. XD~ He was very cute, too.
Though the stage lightning and stuff, and most of all Ruki XD probably prevented it, I'm still hoping Kai at least once saw that I had his name-kanji written on my hand. I held it up so often that in the end I had to support my arm with the other. >.>
Just as I thought I didn't really like the tour goods that much. XD Well, I bought the black/white T-shirt which was sold at earlier shows, too (I think) and a bandana. The staff was strange... When I ordered the shirt, he told me "We only have that one in XL-size" and I stupidly blinked at him and nearly spat "I don't care!". Well, guess what? It fits me perfectly as if it was M or L! XD And the other shirts looked even smaller, oh my... *shakes head*
After getting back by train I went to sleep at about 7 am and slept until 1 pm. I felt a lot better after that, but my stomach still won't accept too much food at a time. O.o Strange. Also, quite quickly after getting up I started to get crying attacks again and again. That was even stranger. As I wrote in the beginning, in itself it was an awsome live, performance-wise and just for the fact how close I was to them. But as I couldn't fully enjoy it... I just don't know. Or it is really Kai doing this to me. Actually I wrote him that, too. Just as I also wrote that I'm joining the fanclub soon, that I'll collect money and see them at a live in Japan one day again. Oh yes, I will!