this is my reality
Everytime I close my eyes all I can see is you all over her...doing the things that only you and I did. Kissing and touching and breatihng and sweating...was it worth it in the end? I feel sick...I need to lay down...but when I go to sleep I will have nightmares about this. I never want to sleep again but its all I want to do...hands and fingers and lips in places that they shouldn't be...what were you thinking? Obviously you weren't thinking about me...in the back of a truck on the side of the road...I don't even think you realzie what you've done...how you've hurt me...what you've taken away....you act like nothing happend but the images are vivid in my mind. I can see you and her. I can see her and you. I can see what you did. don't touch me agian...I feel tainted just having you around...I can't wash this feeling away. It won't go away. I need someone to save me. you used to be that saviour. my sanity...my friend...was it all worth it?? every kiss...every touch...every sigh...every moan... I thought you were mine. I guess I thought wrong. never to trust you again. never to buy in to your lies. she's just a friend. dont' worry. lies. tonges touching..hair pulling...skin biting...was it worth it? no more love....no more heart...I'm empty...betrayed. blowing this out of proportion? fuck you. when I close my eyes I can see...hear...taste your betrayal. I'm affraid to blink. You've taken that away from me. blowing it out of proportion? fuck her...oh wait, you took care of that.