Many Thanks

[keenmixer]

Thanks to Kelly and Phil for letting me hang out and play video games.

Thanks to Suzie and Stephen for their continual moral support.

Thanks to Roblyn for the voice of experience.

Thanks to Kevin for direction and insight. (Sorry to distract from your deadline!)

Thanks to my family for just letting me exist while they go about their busy day.

Thanks to Tory for a place to be that feels safe and accepting.

Thanks to Ambera for focus and distraction.

Thanks to Dan for allowing me to spend an entire evening without having to dwell on misery.

I'm ok, I still have moments of rage and moments where I cry out of the blue. I feel like the last 3+ months of my life has been a lie. I still have no appetite, but I am drinking Ensure everyday and at least some solid food every night. Sleep is still a work in progress as I'm least able to control my thoughts at night or when I wake up. Doesn't help that my dreams aren't that friendly lately either...I chalk it up with too much to assimilate lately.

I go back to work on Monday which I'm looking forward to as something to keep me busy.

Tonight was great to just hang out and chat with so many people, to just sit and listen to a quiet jam in a comfortable atmosphere, but mostly the chance to laugh and enjoy myself in a situation that is not connected with the ex.

I cannot express how greatful I am to all the offers of company as it helps to ward off this feeling of insignifigance I have due to the complete disregard I was shown that resulted in the break up.

Thank you thank you thank you.