Updates its been ages
I am done with the undergrad. It feels very good. I fixed other things along the way. It was very difficult in the spring but I think as I already mentioned, along the way I built up an amazing support system. And made many good friends here in central IL and beyond (worldwide) who have had a worldly experiences and mindsets.
Even as a Baha'i (and I did resign my membership after precisely 4 years to figure out my identity and dilemma) I have known and now finally emotionally realize that not all people who are nice are open minded. There are so many people who say they are nice and open minded and yet they behave in a sheltered fashion. There's this one line from Depeche Mode's song Condemnation lyric line 'your kindness substitutes blindness' that is what I am meaning.
I am finished producing a DVD for the American Lung Association Asthma Camp. That camp was a lot of fun to go to just west of the West suburbs of Chicago. I completed so many other projects that I could not finish in April. Now, I am a grad student but I can't help it and have fun and have the time of my life. I am also moving out again to a more happening place. Not a metro area like Chicago and I was in the outskirts of downtown it was very busy. But to the capitol which is ideal for my public administration studies. I'm working at the Department of Revenue but I gotta have my fun too. I'm working in cosmetics as well. :D
So, most of my best readers who are mainly lurkers and non LJ people already know the best stuff that has occurred. I am finally accepting that life is a process and things can not change overnight. I knew that but to feel that even though rationalization is there is immense.
One of my good friends from the Depeche Mode message board is one of my best friends ever and she is in Mexico. Her name is Lenina and she is an incredible artist. I have posted her stuff here before. (the Martyr calligraphy and Sister of Night ) Here is one of her latest a Spanish tribute to Recoil, which is record label of ex member Alan Wilder. He is the man who created the infamous 'depeche' sound of the albums Violator and Songs of Faith and Devotion. Of course I will meet my soulsister next year when our beloved band is on tour.
I finally realize that those guys who are charmers I need to be very wary of and not get my hopes up. All my girls tell me this. I had to learn this lesson over and over again in person and online. I can't help it I'm not easy or blind to guys who are looking for the one thing but its a game and I can't help but be friendly to all people. Anyways, I've been listening to so many other bands this week. No Depeche Mode funnily. Thank god. I was getting a bit sick of my favorite band but it mostly had to do with a silly dude. :D
Even as a Baha'i (and I did resign my membership after precisely 4 years to figure out my identity and dilemma) I have known and now finally emotionally realize that not all people who are nice are open minded. There are so many people who say they are nice and open minded and yet they behave in a sheltered fashion. There's this one line from Depeche Mode's song Condemnation lyric line 'your kindness substitutes blindness' that is what I am meaning.
I am finished producing a DVD for the American Lung Association Asthma Camp. That camp was a lot of fun to go to just west of the West suburbs of Chicago. I completed so many other projects that I could not finish in April. Now, I am a grad student but I can't help it and have fun and have the time of my life. I am also moving out again to a more happening place. Not a metro area like Chicago and I was in the outskirts of downtown it was very busy. But to the capitol which is ideal for my public administration studies. I'm working at the Department of Revenue but I gotta have my fun too. I'm working in cosmetics as well. :D
So, most of my best readers who are mainly lurkers and non LJ people already know the best stuff that has occurred. I am finally accepting that life is a process and things can not change overnight. I knew that but to feel that even though rationalization is there is immense.
One of my good friends from the Depeche Mode message board is one of my best friends ever and she is in Mexico. Her name is Lenina and she is an incredible artist. I have posted her stuff here before. (the Martyr calligraphy and Sister of Night ) Here is one of her latest a Spanish tribute to Recoil, which is record label of ex member Alan Wilder. He is the man who created the infamous 'depeche' sound of the albums Violator and Songs of Faith and Devotion. Of course I will meet my soulsister next year when our beloved band is on tour.
I finally realize that those guys who are charmers I need to be very wary of and not get my hopes up. All my girls tell me this. I had to learn this lesson over and over again in person and online. I can't help it I'm not easy or blind to guys who are looking for the one thing but its a game and I can't help but be friendly to all people. Anyways, I've been listening to so many other bands this week. No Depeche Mode funnily. Thank god. I was getting a bit sick of my favorite band but it mostly had to do with a silly dude. :D