Because I'm a Fool[6/7]
A/N: So here’s a new chapter.. ^^,
Because I’m a Fool
{ Chapter 6 }
Yabu and Hikaru are glaring at Takaki.
“What?” he asked them. “Stop looking at me like I’m some kind of a delicious meat.”
“How can you keep this calm? Go to Inoo and talk to him!” Yabu said.
“No way.”he said firmly. “What’s the use of talking to him? He’s happy now with Daiki.”
“They’re not yet lovers. They’re just friends.” Yabu continued. “You needed to confess everything to him now. Everything.. before it’s too late.”
“There may be harm in trying, but also remember that there can also be regrets on doing nothing,” Hikaru said, his face was serious.
He looked at Hikaru with a knotted forehead. Did Hikaru just said that?
Hikaru smiled widely. “I read that in a manga. It’s really nice, right? It made sense. It took me awhile to memorize that. I started weeks-Ouch! Yabu~!” Hikaru looked at Yabu.
Yabu whacked Hikaru’s head. “Why did you have to talk that much? Jeez.”
Hikaru jokingly whacked Yabu’s head too. “Why did you have to be this sadistic? Jeez.”
Yabu just kicked Hikaru to shut him up.
He sighed.
“Takaki,” Yabu looked at him with understanding eyes. “Don’t take PRIDE for granted. Because it’s just a five-letter word that may ruin a long word called RELATIONSHIP.”
He looked at Yabu who was giving him an understanding smile now. “Don’t let pride overtake your heart; for it’s better for you to lose your pride because of love than to lose your love because of pride..” Yabu said.
When he heard those words. He knew what to do. He needed to talk with Inoo now.
***
Takaki picked up the note that was in his book. “Meet me at the fifth floor. 5 o’clock.”
He didn’t know who put the note there but he had the idea that it must be Daiki. He sighed. It was just two weeks ago that they were fighting at each other. Now he wanted to talk to him again? What for?
When it was already 5 o’clock, he went to the fifth floor. Came inside a room and waited for Daiki to come.
He was guessing what they would talk about this time when he heard someone came in the door. He looked around and saw Inoo’s surprised face.
“I-Inoo..” he said in a weak voice.
Inoo, who was still surprised looked at him with disbelief. “D-Dai..Where’s Dai-chan? He told me to come here..” Inoo said.
“Daiki told you to go here? He told me too..” he said.
Now he got what Daiki was planning. He grabbed the chance and went near Inoo.
He looked at him in the eyes. “Inoo, I’m… sorry.” He said.
“You’re sorry for what?” Inoo asked.
“I’m.. sorry. I really did love you. It wasn’t just a bet. Well, it was partly true but.. when I said ‘I love you’.. I meant it.” He confessed.
Inoo looked at him with a sad face. “You’re telling me that you loved me, Takaki.”
He looked at him. “Yes..”
“You’re telling me that you’re sorry for what you did.”
“Yes..”
Inoo sighed. “But.. too much time has passed Takaki. Half a year passed by and you told me about that just now..” his eyes were near in tears.
He looked at Inoo. Now, he badly wanted to punch his self. How can he hurt him that much? “I know..” he said.
A silence came.
“You want to know what was really hard that time? It was when.. I want to express what I feel.. but all I can do is shut up.” Inoo said. “You didn’t have any idea how much I was hurt, Takaki. I want to talk with you but I can’t. I badly want to scream in your face that I love you too but I can’t.. you shattered my heart into pieces during that time that you told me it was a bet..” A tear fell in Inoo’s eyes.
He went to touch him but Inoo shoved his hand away.
“Don’t touch me!” Inoo managed to say. He was shaking due to too much emotions. He leaned to the wall for support. He was crying now. “D-don’t touch me..”
“You let too much time passed by, Takaki. During those times, I was badly hurt. You had many chances but you let it passed.” Inoo said as he wiped his tears. “I fell in love with you and I was the one to be blamed for that.. You were mean to me and I ignored it. You never failed to break my heart but I still stayed in your side. I kept on giving my love to you. I treasured you the most. I tried to hold on and never let go of you, even though my mind kept on telling me to go away..”
“Inoo..”
“But all you cared about is your pride!” Inoo snapped at him. “You treasured your pride more than me, Takaki.”
“All those times that I was broken, I realized one thing.. I deserved someone who knows how to make things up again after making me feel bad..” Inoo looked at him. “Not just someone who’s very good with just the word ‘sorry’.”
He felt his heart badly sliced up. Hearing those words from Inoo and seeing him cry at the same time. He must have been hurting more than what I feel this time. He thought.
“I love you so much and I mean it..” he said bravely.
Inoo smiled bitterly even if his tears were falling. “Time surely heals all wounds. I’ve learned to give you up.. I’ve accepted the fact that you can’t swallow your pride for me. It’s not the right time to say ‘I’ve moved on..’ but it should be ‘I’m not hurting anymore..’ I LOVED you, Takaki. You don’t know how long I have been waiting to hear those words from you..”
“Let me make it up to you, Inoo.. please..” he swallowed his pride and begged. He never thought this time would come.. all for the sake of love.
The sadness and firm conviction in Inoo’s tea-colored brown eyes reached out to him. “N-No.” Inoo said firmly. “I’m tired and sick of all this games, Takaki. I’m fed up of you and your lies! I’m so damn tired because of your pride! I know you can hurt me again. I-if.. only you said that months ago.. It’s just too late now.” Inoo wiped his tears again. “Even the most effective drug expires, how much more the strongest feelings when ignored..”
“I-Inoo..”, he swallowed the lump choking his throat. “Is it because of Daiki?” he asked.
Inoo looked at him, he wasn’t smiling but his eyes were. Even in between those tears he can see it clearly. “He isn’t my boyfriend but I love his hugs, his smiles, his advices, his kindness and the times when we laugh together.. I guess I fell in love with our friendship.”
He sighed. He wanted to cry now but no. Not in front of Inoo. He needed to act strong.
“I guess.. that can’t be helped..” he said as he looked down.
“He was always there when I was hurting. He never left my side..” Inoo said.
“There will be someone for you, Takaki. Someone who can keep up with you more and that’s not me.” Inoo said again. “We never became lovers because we were destined to be just close friends..” then walked away and closed the door.
As soon as he heard the door closed, his tears fall down on his cheeks uncontrollably. He cried his heart out as he sat on the floor.
He heard the door opened again and as he looked up, he saw a janitor coming in with a trash can in his hands. Shit! Someone saw me. He said. I’m going to curse this janitor.
He stood up as he wiped his tears. As he went out for the door, he glanced at the janitor’s name patch.
Jun Matsumoto.
***
Daiki walked home alone. He must be the biggest idiot in the world. He just plotted Takaki and Inoo so they can both talk. The two of them must have been happy now. All their misunderstandings must have already been cleared.
He smiled bitterly. Because he said he was willing to do anything for Inoo. He can’t stand him seeing in pain. Being in his side wasn’t enough and he needed to do something.
They must have become lovers now. Sealing their love with a kiss. Just thinking of those squeezed his heart even more.
He sighed as he looked at the sky. Inoo-chan, I hope you all the happiness.. be happy with the one you love. He happy.. with Takaki.
As he felt his visions were clouded with tears, he sighed and decided to continue walking home.
He will still be in Inoo’s side. Of course. If he can’t become his boyfriend, at least he can become his best friend.
***
~*One more chapter and.. tanananan~ this will end. XD Oops, I think I don’t have sadistic readers here.. still, I wanna make sure. :3 *runs away and hides*
Comments and critiques are welcome! xD
Because I’m a Fool
{ Chapter 6 }
Yabu and Hikaru are glaring at Takaki.
“What?” he asked them. “Stop looking at me like I’m some kind of a delicious meat.”
“How can you keep this calm? Go to Inoo and talk to him!” Yabu said.
“No way.”he said firmly. “What’s the use of talking to him? He’s happy now with Daiki.”
“They’re not yet lovers. They’re just friends.” Yabu continued. “You needed to confess everything to him now. Everything.. before it’s too late.”
“There may be harm in trying, but also remember that there can also be regrets on doing nothing,” Hikaru said, his face was serious.
He looked at Hikaru with a knotted forehead. Did Hikaru just said that?
Hikaru smiled widely. “I read that in a manga. It’s really nice, right? It made sense. It took me awhile to memorize that. I started weeks-Ouch! Yabu~!” Hikaru looked at Yabu.
Yabu whacked Hikaru’s head. “Why did you have to talk that much? Jeez.”
Hikaru jokingly whacked Yabu’s head too. “Why did you have to be this sadistic? Jeez.”
Yabu just kicked Hikaru to shut him up.
He sighed.
“Takaki,” Yabu looked at him with understanding eyes. “Don’t take PRIDE for granted. Because it’s just a five-letter word that may ruin a long word called RELATIONSHIP.”
He looked at Yabu who was giving him an understanding smile now. “Don’t let pride overtake your heart; for it’s better for you to lose your pride because of love than to lose your love because of pride..” Yabu said.
When he heard those words. He knew what to do. He needed to talk with Inoo now.
***
Takaki picked up the note that was in his book. “Meet me at the fifth floor. 5 o’clock.”
He didn’t know who put the note there but he had the idea that it must be Daiki. He sighed. It was just two weeks ago that they were fighting at each other. Now he wanted to talk to him again? What for?
When it was already 5 o’clock, he went to the fifth floor. Came inside a room and waited for Daiki to come.
He was guessing what they would talk about this time when he heard someone came in the door. He looked around and saw Inoo’s surprised face.
“I-Inoo..” he said in a weak voice.
Inoo, who was still surprised looked at him with disbelief. “D-Dai..Where’s Dai-chan? He told me to come here..” Inoo said.
“Daiki told you to go here? He told me too..” he said.
Now he got what Daiki was planning. He grabbed the chance and went near Inoo.
He looked at him in the eyes. “Inoo, I’m… sorry.” He said.
“You’re sorry for what?” Inoo asked.
“I’m.. sorry. I really did love you. It wasn’t just a bet. Well, it was partly true but.. when I said ‘I love you’.. I meant it.” He confessed.
Inoo looked at him with a sad face. “You’re telling me that you loved me, Takaki.”
He looked at him. “Yes..”
“You’re telling me that you’re sorry for what you did.”
“Yes..”
Inoo sighed. “But.. too much time has passed Takaki. Half a year passed by and you told me about that just now..” his eyes were near in tears.
He looked at Inoo. Now, he badly wanted to punch his self. How can he hurt him that much? “I know..” he said.
A silence came.
“You want to know what was really hard that time? It was when.. I want to express what I feel.. but all I can do is shut up.” Inoo said. “You didn’t have any idea how much I was hurt, Takaki. I want to talk with you but I can’t. I badly want to scream in your face that I love you too but I can’t.. you shattered my heart into pieces during that time that you told me it was a bet..” A tear fell in Inoo’s eyes.
He went to touch him but Inoo shoved his hand away.
“Don’t touch me!” Inoo managed to say. He was shaking due to too much emotions. He leaned to the wall for support. He was crying now. “D-don’t touch me..”
“You let too much time passed by, Takaki. During those times, I was badly hurt. You had many chances but you let it passed.” Inoo said as he wiped his tears. “I fell in love with you and I was the one to be blamed for that.. You were mean to me and I ignored it. You never failed to break my heart but I still stayed in your side. I kept on giving my love to you. I treasured you the most. I tried to hold on and never let go of you, even though my mind kept on telling me to go away..”
“Inoo..”
“But all you cared about is your pride!” Inoo snapped at him. “You treasured your pride more than me, Takaki.”
“All those times that I was broken, I realized one thing.. I deserved someone who knows how to make things up again after making me feel bad..” Inoo looked at him. “Not just someone who’s very good with just the word ‘sorry’.”
He felt his heart badly sliced up. Hearing those words from Inoo and seeing him cry at the same time. He must have been hurting more than what I feel this time. He thought.
“I love you so much and I mean it..” he said bravely.
Inoo smiled bitterly even if his tears were falling. “Time surely heals all wounds. I’ve learned to give you up.. I’ve accepted the fact that you can’t swallow your pride for me. It’s not the right time to say ‘I’ve moved on..’ but it should be ‘I’m not hurting anymore..’ I LOVED you, Takaki. You don’t know how long I have been waiting to hear those words from you..”
“Let me make it up to you, Inoo.. please..” he swallowed his pride and begged. He never thought this time would come.. all for the sake of love.
The sadness and firm conviction in Inoo’s tea-colored brown eyes reached out to him. “N-No.” Inoo said firmly. “I’m tired and sick of all this games, Takaki. I’m fed up of you and your lies! I’m so damn tired because of your pride! I know you can hurt me again. I-if.. only you said that months ago.. It’s just too late now.” Inoo wiped his tears again. “Even the most effective drug expires, how much more the strongest feelings when ignored..”
“I-Inoo..”, he swallowed the lump choking his throat. “Is it because of Daiki?” he asked.
Inoo looked at him, he wasn’t smiling but his eyes were. Even in between those tears he can see it clearly. “He isn’t my boyfriend but I love his hugs, his smiles, his advices, his kindness and the times when we laugh together.. I guess I fell in love with our friendship.”
He sighed. He wanted to cry now but no. Not in front of Inoo. He needed to act strong.
“I guess.. that can’t be helped..” he said as he looked down.
“He was always there when I was hurting. He never left my side..” Inoo said.
“There will be someone for you, Takaki. Someone who can keep up with you more and that’s not me.” Inoo said again. “We never became lovers because we were destined to be just close friends..” then walked away and closed the door.
As soon as he heard the door closed, his tears fall down on his cheeks uncontrollably. He cried his heart out as he sat on the floor.
He heard the door opened again and as he looked up, he saw a janitor coming in with a trash can in his hands. Shit! Someone saw me. He said. I’m going to curse this janitor.
He stood up as he wiped his tears. As he went out for the door, he glanced at the janitor’s name patch.
Jun Matsumoto.
***
Daiki walked home alone. He must be the biggest idiot in the world. He just plotted Takaki and Inoo so they can both talk. The two of them must have been happy now. All their misunderstandings must have already been cleared.
He smiled bitterly. Because he said he was willing to do anything for Inoo. He can’t stand him seeing in pain. Being in his side wasn’t enough and he needed to do something.
They must have become lovers now. Sealing their love with a kiss. Just thinking of those squeezed his heart even more.
He sighed as he looked at the sky. Inoo-chan, I hope you all the happiness.. be happy with the one you love. He happy.. with Takaki.
As he felt his visions were clouded with tears, he sighed and decided to continue walking home.
He will still be in Inoo’s side. Of course. If he can’t become his boyfriend, at least he can become his best friend.
***
~*One more chapter and.. tanananan~ this will end. XD Oops, I think I don’t have sadistic readers here.. still, I wanna make sure. :3 *runs away and hides*
Comments and critiques are welcome! xD