So maybe im being a little ridiculous...
So tonight on twitter somebody said they were buying tickets to see Jonathon Youngs new play Tear the Curatain. now they could have been kidding or they may have been serious. IDK. either way i saw that and i letterally just broke out into sobbing hysterics. i honest to goodness just cried for a good 15 minutes about it.
crazy right?
the reason i think i started crying is cuz im basically certain im never going to meet him. and that kills me. he seriously means so much to me. like they way everybody else takls about Amanda or Robin or Chris or Agam and Ryan. thats Jon for me. and now its like all my friends have or will soon that moment of "OMG I MET HIM/HER!" and i am most likely not giong to have that ever. and even just that. I was saying it in Vancouver, that was it for me. Now that Uni has started...well soon will start...i basically dont see the fainances coming to gether for me to get out there ever again. I just dont. I also just dont forsee him writing back. i mean, how many times have you heard of ANY celeb writing back? i know i havent. they jst send back signed pictures which totally cheapns everything. its happened to me before hence i waited so long to write Jon in the first place.
so maybe im being a little ridiculous.
but at the same time. Jonathon literally means the world to me. and it not so much eve him just what me loving him as brought me. It brought me here, to fandom. first to gateworld where i made some good friends there, one that i am really close with. then it brought me to twitter where i met the greatest fandom friends ever. seriously. you guys mean the world to me. i would be so incredibly lost without you all. becuase of you guys i have come to lvove myself for who i am, the crazy bisexual sober fangirl that i am. i got to meet some of you in vancouver (SG14 <333). i also have team awesome and just all of you who havent met but i will meet someday. i love each and every one of you in your own way more than i can say.
and Jonathon brought me here.
so maybe im being a little ridiculous that im going to cry about anything related to ppl i know getting to see Jon perform or meet him or what not. but maybe ive got a reason too.